I can’t explain how sad I am to know your gone… you were alway so nice and good to me. Even though we didn’t really hang out I always liked talking to you when I’d see you during break or lunch.
I wish this wouldn’t have ended like this, but I know you are in a better place now and hopefully I’ll see you again some day again.
Well Marissa.. you were one girl that I never really got to know. You always looked so beautiful and happy walking on campus with that smile on your face. I still don’t know why you did it.. why you couldn’t have just waited. That’s nothing anyone can change now though. Hopefully you are happier now in the place you are at.
Rest in peace Marissa.
My condolences go out to your family and close friends.
-Sincerely, Robert Volk.
Marissa,
you promised. you told me that you would never do this to me. why, why did you have to do this. i love you i could have been there to help you. what am i going to do without you now. i think about all the crazyy times we have had together ever since 5th grade. all that time and we only got in one fight can you believe that. you were my best friend, like a sister to me. i told you everything and knew that i could alwasys count on you. i wish that it didnt have to end like this. dont you remember mine urs and kaitlyns talk when we were camping, or us drinking hot coco at ur house. you had so much going for you yet so much holding you back. it still isnt real for me. iwant you to just call me and tell me that it is all just a joke so you can hear me laugh. i dont know how im going to make it or be able to sit during gov without you there. you were the one reason i did the class riss i didnt want to disappoint you. i love you with all my heart and you were one of the greatest friends that i will ever have no one can replace you. just come back already; ill even let you talk in spanish to me 🙂 please visit me and watch over me. i love you and i hope you are able to read this and see how much i miss you.
Forever and always your Bestie with the crazyyy laugh <3
At times life brings us situations we have no control over. Sometimes we are faced with situations and we don’t know how or if we will make it through them. The clouds can seem thick and you can’t see the outcome. You will never forget her or the memories you shared, but as time goes on and you grow older it becomes easier to face life’s situations. With time it will be easier to think of her, and have memories of moments you shared without shedding tears and with only fond memories. Until then, keep your head-up, be strong, and remember that she is now being well taken care of!
Dear Marissa Mcleod,
So I remember the first time I found out who you were. You were the sexy anchorwoman on Colony Oak’s very own CNN. I was new to Colony Oak that year. You were a big, bad eighth grader while I was in seventh grade. As time passed, I noticed how fun you were. You were a beautiful sophisticated woman. You were neither a nerd, or a slut. You were Marissa McLeod; the girl who could cheer, party, and get a 4.2 GPA all at the same time. Remarkable! You worked so hard and I wish you could have waited to get out of Ripon. You were that much closer to going to Harford.
I won’t forget our last memory at Nick’s party this fall break. I’m glad we took that shot 🙂 and I will cherish that memory.
In my eyes, you were my friend and I will never forget that. I miss you Marissa McLeod. Unfortunately, I’m currently still in denial about what happened. But in a way, i’m not crazy! I know you’re here, watching our student body as we achieve and work our ways to our goal. This tragedy is having a big impact on our schools, our teachers–our friends. You will be missed–never forgotten. Te amo 🙂
-Kevin Ton
Marissa…
I don’t know what to say about all of this because I will never know why all of this happened, but I do know that you were an amazing person. You had the biggest heart, I will never forget when you and Lauren and Nicole came to the hospital with flowers to visit me over the summer when I broke my back. I was so happy to see you guys! Girls league wouldn’t have been the same without you, you always came up with the best ideas. Between serving dinner at the homeless shelter to going to party city to pick out decorations for sadies to singing christmas carols to the people at bethany homes, I can honestly say that you put your whole heart into it all. Not many people can do that so I believe that you were a very unique person. I wish things didn’t have to end this way, I wish we could’ve talked more. You had big dreams and everyone knew you would go far in life once out of high school… I wish you could’ve seen that yourself though… You were a beautiful person inside and out and I know that you will never be forgotten. We will all miss you so much….
Love,
Cali
Marissa you have left us so early and I will never undrstand y what made you do this you are a good person and always made me smile! You were so beautiful and lit up any room you waked into I wish someone could have been there to stop you I wish you just would have reachd out for help! So many people love you and always wil you will never be forgotten! You’ll be loved forever! Rest in paradise
Marissa…
I watched you and my sister grow up together. I hope you know that you were a beautiful, smart, and caring girl. Whatever was hurting you so bad I hope you can now rest in peace. All your fears, horrible memories, and all you thoughts be washed away. It just makes me sad to think that you felt there was no other way out. You, Marissa McLeod were going to change the world some day. Instead you changed our lives in another way. And I hope this is a message to the rest of you kids at Ripon High.. Marissa and Dillon were two teenagers who were from different crowds but obviously both crying out for help. Every action has a reaction.. So think about that before you decide to tease someone or not take what they have to say seriously.. YOU WILL BE MISSED DEARLY MARISSA!!!
Marissa
i know we just started talking but i liked you so much
every kiss i felt something so special
i told you how amazing you weres o many times
just believe me
i hope yoou found your happiness babe
and im sorry i coldnt give it to you
you will always be in my heart marissa
i love you girl
Dear Hart,
I don’t know if you remember, it’s been many years since the stone Soup days, I’m Miss Sylvia (used to work there) I am so sorry for your loss. It’s hard to understand why a person makes these choices, But I want you to know that you did make her happy. She probably was struggling with deeper emotions than anyone could ever comprehend. I guess the reason I’m writing to you is to let you know, life isn’t easy, but it is worth living.
I don’t even really know what to say, I just wish teens could realize right now that life is much more simpler in high school, you’re going to realize that you guys have it so easy, and all that petty drama was worthless. Ask any adult if they would like to go back to high school and they would say YES! High school is supposed to be the best 4 years of your life, and it truly is!
Please if you or anyone you know are facing struggles, please realize there is always someone to talk to, ANYONE will lend an ear, shoulder or tissue.
I think that most have made it clear by how much your actions shocked us all. Things like this don’t happen in small towns like Ripon…let alone twice, in the same year, same semester, same graduating class. I just wish that you had realized how beautiful the gift of life is and how many people would have done anything in their powers just to have another shot at breathing. Granted, I don’t know your reasoning behind your choice, nor will anyone truly comprehend. You affect more people than you think you do, and I think that it shows now. But it should have been apparent when you needed someone the most. So to everyone who reads this, please just talk to someone. Anyone, for that matter. People care more than you know. I’ll keep you in my heart Marissa. And so will everyone in our community. Enjoy your journey to your new home. And say hello to Dillion and to Bryan for us all. We miss them. And we miss you too.
Eternal love, ********
To the McLeod Family: I’m truly sorry for your loss. Marissa was a one-of-a-kind beauty that everyone wanted to know personally. She had an incredible smile, and a fisty attitude that most will never be able to possess. Take note, though, she made an impact on everyone around her. I wish you the best.
I didn’t know you, but in these two days i have heard a lot of amazing things about you. I can never fully understand why a beautiful person like you would take her life, or anyone else for that matter…i hope that you and Dillion both find the peace on Heaven that you couldnt achieve on Earth, may you both rest in peace…
Marissa’ peers, friends and surrounding class. It is apparent that lifes challenges these days, are getting harder. The mountain seems higher, the river seems wider but I will tell you there is someone always thinking of you. Someone is always lifting you up without being seen. Someone is holding onto hope so that you have a brighter tommorrow. We as parents are not perfect and do not have all the answers. We can only hope, wait and watch as you enter the teen-age/young adult years that your efforts do not fade but are enhanced by the unique character in people around you. To filter out the hollowness in words and search for action. In most cases, YOU!, have to be the one to step foreward into the flowing river to allow others to see hope.
You each have been blessed with individual gifts and talents. Sometimes it takes some a little longer to grow simply because the roots must be strong enough to weather the challenges by lifes storms. SO, I would encourage you to stay the course, or simply stay focused on the beauty life has after all, lifes to short. My daughters are students at your school and pray that Ripon High is a place of Hope as you prepare for life, a place of Joy as you share in the good times, a place of Stregnth as you go through this together. May God be with you all, the family of Marissa and know that someone loves you!!
Marissa
you are truely going to be missed! you were a beautiful young girl who had soo much goinn for you!You were definitly gonna change the world! i know we didnt really hangout as much but i realy wish yu were still here with us….know one understands why things like this happen and y people chooose that wayy out but i hope that yu are in a better place and that yu are happier and resting in paradise with dillon..i miss the both of yu alot and yu guys will never be forgotton and always thought about
Marissa,
You were the most amazing person. Everyday you would come to me with a new story and a new addition to the “square of love”. I owe you so much for everytime you helped me when I felt like giving up and now I feel as though I failed you. I know you are in a better place, but that doesn’t replace the pain and the longing we all feel for you. Each day will bring us less pain, but it will never be healed. Each day we will think of you and know you are supposed to be with us. When prom comes, when the senior trip comes, and graduation. You won’t be with us in person, but your spirit will always be with us because your journey through Ripon High with us left a special impact on everyone. You touched our hearts. And when I think of Ap Bio, I’ll think of you, and how we planned to name our kids after trig functions and square them if they were twins, and when they miss behaved we’d call them by their derivative.lol(: we were nerds. And when I walk into spanish, Ill remember how you promised to be there with me to struggle through the year. And how we’d always talk in english and when senora walked by, we’d switch to spanish only to go right back to english.haha. Marissa, I miss you so much. I love you girl. You were a great friend and truly left an impact on my life I will always always cherish and remember
-love your friend caitlin
Marissa, or as i like to call you my dancing partner,
You new how to brighten someones day and always make them feel better. You did to me. You taught me to dance at core camp, hahaha, and became a great friend to me. I wish this wasnt the end. You were such a smarty and a beautiful person inside and out. Like i say, no one can work that zebra attire like you did. I’ll miss seeing you.
Rest In Paradise, Love Taylor Clarke
Hey Marissa.
I remember when i met you
it was my freshmen orientation
you were in charge of me.
Then we became friends.
I love you
and youll always be in my heart.
I lost two very dear friends to me in two months.
Your beautiful inside and out
i wish you didnt do this
I hope your happy finally
A good friend told me today
to take this a day at a time
and even though right now sucks
the next i could be happy
to focus on what im looking forward to
to focus on whats good in my life
snd not to linger on things that are so bad
because that will only hurt myself more.
They said shes ok now.
to trust them.
I hope your okay.
and ill remember the good moments
that really seem like yesterday
I LOVE YOU MArissa
Your with the angels now
Marissa… i cant stop repeating that i had noting but high hopes for your future. You always worked sooo hard to be that amazing girl that we remember. You touched everyones life in ways that you dont even know. I never met anyone that was just a nice person to all…other than you. You showed us that kindness was not hard to give no matter how hard our lives were. I thought that you would be the one to come back in 10 years and be a lawyer or be modeling somewhere enjoying life to its fullest and now we have to just wonder why? Why would you do this to all the kids that loved you so much…today i saw people cry who had never cried before. I know that there were many other that were hoping and praying for your success…Mr. Rohn was with me this morning in shock and couldnt believe you were gone. Then she read the first three words of a letter sent to all staff to read about your absence and she cried…she just cried, she loved you so much just like all of us. I know that your in a better place now, without worry and without sorrow. You are one of the few angels that walked among us at RHS for the past almost 4 years. We have to let you go and do your job, watch over everyone that is in pain and let them know your happy. Smile like you always have and we will smile with you. you are truely a great girl that is missed. Enjoy heaven marissa <3
marissa you dont know me all that well but i met last year in girls league and you were so fun and made everything not boring..i know you had a lot of things going for you and i wish you were still here to fullfill them…you are very beautiful girl and i hope you are happy in the place you are in..RIP
Marissa,
DANG! I never saw this coming. I didnt believe it at first either. But its true. You weren’t there during 7th period. I believe it now. Gosh, I miss you. I remember the first day truly met you. I say this because back in Colony Oak I just knew that you were Marissa McLeod. But in Freshman Orientation, my first day of what high school was going to be like, I met you. You were my Link Crew Leader, along with Kendra Contente. You gave me the award for showing the most spirit and you gave me the first hug. I remember like as if it were yesterday. Then, later in my freshman year, some card arrived for me in 1st period. It was from you. Later that day, I gave you a huge card and you said that you loved me. This year, I had you in one of my classes and this is where I danced with you. Then I made you name on a piece of paper like graffiti style. Then you asked me to make you a Tinkerbell in exchange for a bracelet. I have that Tinkerbell which I never finished. I just needed the last touch and I would’ve been done. Today, the day after the terrible news of your death, I found the skeleton you made on Dia de los Muertos day. It’s so beautiful. I have that in my binder too. I miss you Marissa. I love you and I miss you even more. You should have talked to someone, there could have been a solution. I have learned that one doesn’t realize what they have until they lose it. I feel like that right now. I’m so sad. To hear of your death was like a sword was stabbed at my heart. I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER AND LOVE AND MISS YOU LOVE.
RIP Marissa McLeod 5/2/09-12/1/09 <3
Luis
Marissa- Ever since i moved to Ripon I’ve looked up to you. We weren’t very close but you were always there to talk to. Last year at the girls league christmas party after almost everyone else had left you and i sat and talked about your latest guy problems. I know hart would have taken care of you no matter what. No matter how hard things got you always seemed to keep your head up. I remember pole vaulting with you my freshman year and one day we were doing warmups and you completely ate it and the first thing you said when you got up off the ground was “damn good thing i knew how to roll out of that one or it coulda been all bad” between all the laughing we were doing. I’ll miss you dearly and even though you may not realize it you changed a lot of lives and were an angel to look up to. Keep watch over all of us here. Loved forever and never forgotten, you left so many dear friends behind. I hope you found happiness! Rachelle
Marissa,
i didnt really know you very well but you always seemed so nice, and put together at school & always had a smile on your face.i wish i had a chance to get to know you better in girls league this year. you always looked so pretty. we all miss you dearly. i hope you are at peace and happy in heaven, dancing with the angels with a smile on your face and glowing with beauty even more than you were here on earth.you will NEVER be forgotten. we love you & always will.
Rest In Peace Marissa McLeod<3
Man oh man, I actually heard of Marissa from her peers in Chiefs Cheer before I actually met her when she came to the organization. She stood out like a shining star. Everything seemed to come naturally and so easily for her. Then I found out how book smart she was and attended special schools and classes because everything took such little effort for her to achieve the best grades. It was like a total package. I knew she was going far in this world. She was going to be in bigger and better places in this world than most. Wow. I know being a teenager is sooooo difficult and unsettling. I wish you peace. Let it be helpful to the others at RHS to know you are no longer in pain.
marissa ive known you since elementry. remember. you were always so sweet and kind to me. i realy apriciated that. its unfortunate i didnt get to see you much. i also moved from ther but i remember you were always such a great person and an a great friend. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART. REST IN PEACE MARISSA. WE WILL TRULY MISS YOU.
Marissa, we weren’t bestfriends or even good friends. But we hung out pretty often, mostly partied together lol I always enjoyed being around you you were so positive and energetic. You could always make me laugh no matter what you said or did. I would lovvvve to share some of our stories but I don’t want the parents to see.. Haha besides that you were amazing and so damn beautiful. I’ve always been so jealous of you. It seemed like you had everything going right for you..I just wish you could have handled this another way. But it’s done with and now we can’t do anything but grieve. I just keep telling myself you’re much happier now… Hopefully. and I hope you can look down on us and help your friends and family out. Be their guardian angel.. You’ll be so much missed Marissa you don’t even know. I’ll never forget you girl.. Rest in peace and I’ll see you one day, I’ll be praying for you <3
Marissa, I still haven’t come to realize nor accept the fact that you are gone. I dreamed of you last night. I dreamed of the memories I have of you and I. Playing golf at my birthday, playing poker, kissing you at Sam’s birthday party some years ago, making you CD’s, listening to KoRn together, doing but not doing A.P. History homework, and going to the Raider game where you ate a million packs of gum! You were the first crush I ever had in Ripon, and the first kiss I ever had x). In 7th grade I wrote you a love poem. But I never had the courage to give it to you. In algebra with Mrs. Beam I’d always get so nervous because you would always volunteer to take the empty seat next to me. You constantly gave me the butterflies. When I woke up this morning, I wanted to call you and tell you my wonderful dream of these memories. However, after experiencing a tiny fragment of heavenly bliss, I woke myself back to the reality. Even though in High School we didn’t see much of each other, I always felt your presence. Because you have one of those powerful, unique personalities. You have the tremendous ability to open peoples hearts and to impact lives positively. I know for a fact that being with you has positively benefited me. You pretty much taught me how to talk to girls! Now I’m not shy anymore… Well, for the most part. I’ve been rambling, you are probably getting annoyed! I am going to sleep. I love you, and I wish I could say see you tomorrow. But that is not the case. Good night, and maybe one day, my Atheistic fews will be proven wrong and I will see you in an afterlife of some sort. I love love love you Marissa 🙂
Marissa..
So you would probably be laughing at me cause i just totally posted one of these with just your name, didnt mean to i promise. Anyways marissa i was always so fasinated by you..you are a beautiful, intelligant, great person all around. I would never say we were bestfriends but i do consinder you one of my close friends and i hope you considered me that too. We deffiantly have had some crazy night either if we were at joshes, graves, kincaid, sexton or even murphy. You are such an amazing person and i still can not believe your gone. Right now im waiting for you to walk in the door and say hey what are you doing..This is so unreal to me. It was like on Monday me you kamie and kaitlyn were all talking about this guy before school started. I just feel like i could have helped you i wish you could have came to me or anyone else at that. We could have helped you. and i feel like we didnt succeed in trying to help you cause we all thought you were okay. I love you marissa and i miss you very much! Im gonna miss are memories in the orchards you trying to do a handstand in heels and a dress. you always making fun of me cause i couldnt walk in heels at prom, and of course you could(and of course we had to have the same exact ones) ha. You were and inspiration to me i always wanted to be as smart and beautiful as you. I remember i use to always tell you that you look like mariah carey and you just tell me oh be quiet. But now that your gone all make sure to take care of Kamie and Kaitlyn, you have know left them in my hands. I love you marissa and i will see you again some day. RIP Riss<3
Marissa,
I know we really didnt talk much but i knew you since 2003 when we cheered together at POWER it was such a fun time with you and you always had a smile on your face. After POWER i thought id never see you again till one year in football i saw you cheering for Ripon and i freaked out and told everyone about you and how you were an amazing cheerleader. I always looked forward to playing you guys in football and basketball you were an amazing girl so beautiful and full of life. I will miss you dearly and i know “JAMES” the cute one that u wanted me to hook u up with will miss you to! Girly i dearly miss you. You are in gods hand now and we all know you are in a better place. R.I.P. Marissa McLeod miss you and love you!!<3
Marissa even though i really dont know you that well. even though we both went to colony oak. i would just like to say we all miss you. i remember seeing you just the other day on monday.. i was walking down the hall on my way to spanish and you stoped and said hi.. you made me smile 🙂 im in girls league and i always thought you were one of the prettiest girls at ripon high. and i just want you to know that i voted for you for homecoming queen
well i hope your in a happier place. this week has been tough on all of us even some wo dont know you too well like i do. but i just wanted to say i love you and hopefully i will see you again and you will be able to make my day again just as you did on monday
you and dillan will be missed and no one will forget you two
love ya girl
I have no idea where to even begin! You had so much going for you! You are beautiful, smart, and extremely talented! I have no clue what made you leave us so soon, only God knows! I just hope now that all your troubles are gone! You’re an angel now!!! Here’s a song I want to dedicate to you….
Why by Rascal Flatts
You must’ve been in a place so dark you couldn’t feel the light
Reaching for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are together in our little home town
This can’t be the way you meant to draw a crowd
Chorus:
Oh why, that’s what I keep asking
Was there anything I could’ve said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking a troubles soul
God only knows what went wrong
And why you’d leave the stage in the middle of a song
Now in my mind i’ll keep you frozen as a 17 year old
Rounding third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage you shined just like the sun
Chorus:
Now the oak trees are swaying in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
Tangled thoughts I hear the mocking bird sing
This old worl ain’t really bad a place
Oh there’s no comprehending who am I to try to judge or explain
But I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn’t worth the fight
They were wrong
They lied
Now you’re gone and we cry
Its just not like you to walk away in the middle of a song
Your beautiful song
Your absolutely beautiful song
YOU REALLY ARE A BEAUTIFUL SONG MARISSA! You are in our hearts and will be loved and missed greatly!! Rest in peace!
Marissa..
You are an amazing person and will never be forgotten. Leadership will never be the same without you, especially having that empty desk next to me where you sat. I will miss all of our great “boy” talks that we had..and wish we could have had many more. I hope that you are finally at peace, but i will never understand why you though that this had to be the answer to your pain. I love you dearly Marissa and wish that you never had to leave us like this. Our senior class will never be the same without you or dillon with us.. I love you girl and hope to one day see you agin.
Love you<3
wow. one of these days i’ll have the sudden urge to make the most grotesque and unattractive monkey faces, look around for you, and finally realize that i can’t do that anymore. that’s when it’ll truely hit me, but i’ll try to be strong, just like you have been all your life. you have always been inspirational to me: being able to take on a bazillion ap classes, having a job, doing cheer, girls’ league, leadership, and finding the time to have fun. i know i could talk to you about any random topic and we would get so carried away with our imaginations. (heck you’re one of the few people in the world that could stand a chance against austin in a debate) although i wont be able to observe you in absolute amazement anymore, you will continue to impact me. you’re definitely one of a kind, breaking through all generalities and prejudices and i feel so fortunate and grateful to have had the chance to meet and get to know such a friendly, humourous, beautiful, and truly intelligent woman.
Marissy, We’ve seen the love that surrounded you in this world from the moment you were born. So tiny, your Gramma and Grandpa called you peanut. We all prayed you would make it, so small, you were a fighter, you proved it to everyone. You grew into such a beautiful girl, always fun to have around, I loved to watch you eat….You sure enjoyed your food, never have and probably never will see anyone that loved to eat as much as you 🙂 Gotta get that cake to go… You kept a smile on everyone’s face! We will miss you forever, that is a given. You’ve touched our lives in a way that will never be the same now that your gone. I wish we could have a do over, live every birthday, Easter, Christmas and vacation again so that we could appreciate everything in a way that we probably didn’t realize we should. From this moment on we will pledge to live our lives in a more appreciative way in your honor. Love you Gerald, Dawn and Cody…..
Marissa, Dawn is so right about us all going to miss you. I remember the birthday parties you had at your Gram and Grandad’s house in Pleasonton. You were so cute then and before we knew it you were on your way to womenhood. I know you were a teenager but I felt just by seeing you now and then you were so much older then that. I remember to your Grandad saying he was going to fight off the boys or I should say they would have to answer to him when you were older. I know he was talking about Cheyenne and Cody at the time. Now you are on another journey. One we all will take one day. I am sure your paving the way for the ones who will join you one day. I understand when we cry to muchhhh we are creating a river by doing this it will be hard for you to cross, and I do want your journey with the creator to be a blessed one. I know it will be. Just by knowing you. I and my family will miss seeing you at your Gram and Granddad’s home. We will always remember how sweet and beautiful you were and am sure you still are. Your Spirit will sore for ever. See you One Day. Lots of hugs for you
Hey Marissa, I know that we lived so very far away from each other while growing up. But I do remember that one very special summer where I got to go to Cali and spend it with you(you were little at the time) and my aunt flora. But I had a lot of fun playing with you bc seeing as I never had a sister, that summer it was like I did. I still have your christmas picture, when you were in a gift box and you still had that beautiful cherry mole!! As the years went on, I was constantly hearing all the wonderful things you were doing and where you were going in ur life. I’ve never been so proud of someone and I know how much you made our family proud. Both the ones in Texas and the ones you had close to you. You made your grandmother so happy and proud to have a granddaughter like you. And i’m glad that she and the rest of them were able to have you bless their lives. I do hope that you are at peace and wish that I could’ve been there to help you.
To Bobby, Aunt flora, uncle Bob, Scotty, melinda and the rest of you guys, I love you all very much, I am so sorry for your loss, I will keep you all in my prayers. And I know that the pain will never go away, but as the days go by, it may become a little easier. And never forget the wonderful gift marissa was to you all and it was a blessing to have and enjoy her. Take care.
this is a song that my brother put together for our lost ones. the question is why??? just in case you never knew i got to let you know theres not a day goes by that i sit and wonder why as i look into the sky and ask god why, i can’t help but cry as i get no response. then it hits me like a train and now im feeling the pain to know that your gone, but your memory lives on that’s why i’m writting this song, im trying to be strong and trying to hold on. i feel im losing the battle to this war called life, im begging you god to end all this pain, take me out of the rain and end all this pain. i got to let you know just in case you never knew what you meant to us words could never explain god took you away and left us with the pain, then everything changed. I hope one of these days that i will be by your side. everyday we wake up i picture your face and your permanent place, i know god keeps you safe and your shinning in heaven.
Marissa, you were everyones world, your dad, my aunt flora(grandma), uncle bob (grandpa) i’ll never forget the day i held you when you were just a baby and aunt flora showed you off like a trophy she had won the love in our eyes for you were unexplained but i just want you to know that you are very loved from all of your family here in TEXAS and i hope that you are in a better place now. WE LOVE YOU MARISSA
LOVE ALWAYS,
YOUR COUSINS SHAVONNE, JOSH, AND FITTI
sissy,
why did you leave me? how do you expect me to do it without you..your my best friend and my sister, even though we are juss step sisters we had a closer bond than juss that. we grew up together. every moment we spent together was the greatest. i miss you sissy, words can not explain how i feel inside. im lost without you. who will i talk to now..how am i supposed to sleep without you in our room. i hope your in a better place and that your happy now and all that pain you had is gone. i know you will still be by my side everyday, i wont ever let you fade away. I LOVE YOU MARISSA!
R.I.P. SISSY
Marissa I will miss you and you were a lovely person in side and out. I wish I could have spend more time with you to get to know you better. But I know I will get to see you in heaven. I LOVE MARISSA! R.I.P LOVE YOUR AUNT EMMA CORDAWAY
Wow, the words being expressed on this page are more soothing than I can explain. It is one thing, as a parent, to know that your child is amazing beyond-belief in so many ways; it is another to hear that so many others saw the same thing. During the candlelight there was a story told that her dad and I especially liked; it was about how Marissa was so smart and involved in everything but not a “dork”. He and I had wondered about that for years, and had many similar conversations about it, so thank you for sharing. (Sorry but I’m not sure who it was.)
Marissa, honey, I hope there comes a time when I can share here, like the others, the love and memories I have for you. There will forever be a part of us missing. Every hour, every day, every year that we make it through, your place will be here. I wish you could have stayed to fill it, babe.
Loving you forever,
“your fake step-mommy” –yes, I know you thought that was hilarious
Marissa’s obituary will be published Sat. and Sun. in the Modesto Bee and next Wed. in the Ripon Record.
Marissa, Ever since you were little I have heard about you and “seen” you grow up through the eyes and the joy of those that love you. From stories about how your Dad painted your room, to your dance competitions and your plans for college and beyond. You brought so much happiness to your family and we were all so proud of you and everything that you accomplished.
When you came up to Reno for Hot August Nights that was the first time I met you since you were a toddler. I always knew you were special by how your great grandma and grandparents lit up when they talked about you (not to mention the fact that Uncle Bob actually stayed up late enough to take you out cruising – a first!), but I was still amazed at what a sweet, beautiful person you were inside and out.
I’m so sorry that you are no longer with us on this earth. May the joy and love you created on this earth shine upon us until we meet you again in heaven.
Marissa,
You left us far too soon.
I don’t have any stories about you because I never made the time to visit. I always told myself I can visit next year, but sometimes, there is no next year.
I promise to start making the time for visits.
May God watch over your family and friends, and give them the strength and healing they need.
Love, your cousin Doug
I only met you once, such a beautiful baby! But I heard a lot of great things about you from your great grandmother Martha, and had recently heard more about you from your grandparents – your grandfather had to show us all some of your recent pictures! You were indeed loved by your family and friends – it is so sad to hear that you are gone.
May God be with your Family and friends; They are all in our thoughts and prayers,
If we could bring you back, For one more hour or day, We’d express all our unspoken love, We’d have countless things to say. If we could bring you back, We’d say we treasured you, And that your presence in our lives Meant more than we ever knew. If we could bring you back, To tell you what we should, You’d know how much we miss you now, And if we could, we would.
Oh Marissa, I don’t even know where to begin. I’m sitting here in tears with so many emotions from sadness, to happiness and anger (not towards you). I have so much I want to say so many feelings running through my body and mind right now. But no words could even begin to express the impact you had on people. I could do no justice in anything I write, I feel like I could write a book right now and even that would only be a start. You are a shinning star, and you could light up a room with your smile. I will NEVER forget the first time I met and saw you at Applebee’s. Over these past eight months we shared many laughs and we were always teasing each other.
I was fortunate to be bale to talk to Marissa a lot and see her a few times over the last week of her life. I have replayed every conversation, every text, myspace message and every minute we were together in my head to see if I could have seen anything that may have given us a clue you were hurting inside. Friday when you got off of work then came over we watched a movie then talked for hours after. We talked about your school, family, friends, college, religion and a bunch of other silly little things. You were so bubbly and excited for the future it has left me confused and dazed to what could have made you so hurt. You asked me questions and I asked them back, we teased each other and talked so genuine about the future. Things you were excited for and things you wanted to accomplish and do. It was always so hard to really think you were only seventeen, half the conversations we had you used words I didn’t even know existed! And when we would talk about politics or “serious” matters of the world you were always so educated and prepared never without a response. I can’t help but think Monday when you text me before work, and usually I come in and see you on Monday nights, but I didn’t make it in this last Monday. I can’t help but think you were reaching out to me, only for me to let you down. Not a day goes by in this short time since I heard the news, have I wished a thousand things had gone different. But God truly has a plan, and a purpose for all things. And I know in times like this it’s hard to realize or we just don’t want to hear that we just want things back the way they were. Slowly and in time it will be revealed the good that comes out of this. Marissa always cared for the well being of others, if by this even one persons life is changed for the good, then Marissa left us the way we remembered her helping other people.
I didn’t really know anyone else involved in Marissa’s life before this week. Through the circumstances I have been fortunate to meet a few of her best friends (Kaitlyn and Tara) and family members (Krysta and Crystal). To them and the rest of the family members and friends I would like to say I couldn’t even pretend to begin to understand the emotions and feelings you all are going through. Selfishly I am hurting also, but to even pretend the eight or so months I knew Marissa compared to the life long journey you all had and shared with her would be foolish of me. I encourage all the friends and family to lean on your religion, your family and friends. Sadly it takes things like this to put things back in perspective sometimes but that’s all we can take with us when our time on earth is done. Take joy and find comfort in knowing the impact your daughter, granddaughter, sister, cousin, niece and friend had on other people. We live in society where it’s usually a me first attitude, but here is a case of a girl who was not that way. Take pride in the fact of how she was, because each of you who knew her contributed to the beautiful person she was inside and out.
We only get one chance on this earth to make a difference and how we want to be remembered. Marissa showed us you could be smart, beautiful, genuine, caring among a bunch of other things and still positively impact other people’s lives. Don’t be a victim of regret and remorse. Do everything you do with a purpose and passion. Reach out and help people you know or don’t know, take the time to talk to someone, or encourage them. We never really know what’s going on with someone or how they are really feeling inside. And by doing that you could change someone’s life, or help prevent a situation like this. All of us who could say we knew or were impacted by Marissa have a tough road ahead of us. We all have so many emotions and feelings, but understand that this is normal and it’s ok to grieve. The Bible says in Ecclesiastes 3:4 there’s a time to weep and a time to laugh; A time to mourn and a time to dance. Everyone this is our time to mourn and grieve, then after that we have a responsibility to Marissa to carry on her name and not let her life simply fade away and be forgotten. This will be our chance to let people hear about this one in a kind woman who so greatly impacted everyone around her.
Lastly I challenge every single friend of the family to continue to support and comfort the family. Sadly in my short twenty-four years of my life I have experienced losing a lot of love ones. My mom said something that has stuck with me since high school, “Life will continue to go on, and there is no way around that. Each day we live is another day that past. We have responsibilities, family, friends, work, bills and all other things that life brings our way. The band must continue marching on we have no choice. It’s easy for the first little while to comfort everyone while everyone is in a state of shock and sadness, but as you slowly get back to living your life, it’s easy to forget that everyday a family member has to deal with a reality that, that special someone is no longer physically present with with them.” So please as you start your healing process and gradually try to get back to living your “normal” life, continue to reach out and support Marissa’s family as this will be a constant process the rest of our and their lives.
R.I.P. and God Bless you Marissa, keep smiling for us because this world so badly needs it! =)
I love you baby. I hope your resting in peace and watching over me…i don’t want you to miss to much 😉 you will never be forgotten, and i truly hope that all your pain is gone. i love you bestie.
Marissa,
I didn’t know you, but my heart is aching for you and your family. You seem to have made an impact on many people in your short life and it’s easy to see you would have impacted the lives of so many others. You not only were a beautiful girl, but also had the potential to really make a difference. I’m sad to think that you felt there was no other way to make it through your struggles. For a brief moment you let those pains take over. I will be praying for your family and fellow classmates that will truly be missing you for a long time, if not forever. Rest in peace.
I felt sick after hearing the news from Marissa’s aunt in Colorado. Marissa was such a beautiful girl, she was sooo nice to me at Harvard- I wish she could have talked to someone.
My heart goes out to her family and her close friends- may Marissa Rest in Peace.
Marissa you were so young and talented i only wish we could help you. noone really knew what you were going threw and its a sham that we couldnt help you. cheer will never be the same without you . you always brought a smile to everyones face and you always looked like you didnt want to learn the dances but when it came down to it you rocked every part , you had so much going for you and im sorry that i’ll never be able to see your acomplish your dreams , your such an amazing girl and i cant tell you hoe much i looked up to you i only hope i can make you proud. i love you babe and i hope you found what you were looking for ,
always and forever in my heart
Marissa even though I was not your aunt by blood you are still my niece. Every time I would see you, you would always greet me with a warm smile and a hug. Even though I got to see you at family get together’s I was always amazed when I seen you out and about in Ripon. I remember one time I went to pay our dog tags and there you were volunteering behind the counter. Another time I was driving down Main Street and there you were at the Chamber accepting formal dresses to be provided for people who could not afford one. It also seemed when I would go to the office at Ripon High there would always be something on the bulletin board that you were involved in. As parents we watch over our children and now that you are a beautiful angel you will be watching over us. We miss you and love you. You will always be in our hearts. Rest in Peace……….
Love Mike, Tammy, and Ryan.
Marissa,
You didn’t know me, but you worked with my sister Veronica at Applebees. It is always very sad, and painful when anyone is taken away from us on this earth, especially when that someone was so young and beautiful, as you were with their future just barely beginning. My prayers, thoughts, and sympathy go out to you, and your family, friends, and loved ones.
Little Marissa,
That is my memories of you, when you were such a little girl. Grandma and Grandpa carried you around everywhere and loved you so. You loved to play with all of your toys on the patio at your grandparents. I am only sorry that our lives grew apart and I didn’t stay close to you, so I would know the young lady you became. In reading all the wonderful blogs that your friends and close family wrote you must have been one amazing young lady. Your grandpa showed me pictures just a month ago of you, he was so proud. My deepest sympathy and love to Bob & Flora, Bobby & Amanda, Scott, Melinda and her family. I cannot do anything to ease the pain but give you a hug and hold you close to my heart.
Love Aunt Liz, Uncle Steve, Denise & Debbie
marissa,
I will always remember your beautiful smlie at our family gatherings, Im still in so much shock, i just cant believe your really gone, i sit and wonder why! You will be missed dearly by more people than you could ever imagine. I love you always.
Marissa,
I know I didn’t really know you, but I wish I had a chance. Ever seince I met you on my first day of cheer practice I have always looked up to you. I will always remember your beautiful face and smile. I love you!
R.I.P Marissa
Love,
Graelyn Pope
Marissa, “Mira me a mi, No mires a ella. El senor es muy especial. Con una sonrisa en su cara. Es lo que me a decho a mi corazon. Para Siempre Tu Gran Tia. JoAnn Champion Adios Ermosa Angel. Marissa, Look at me don’t look at her. The Lord is so great, He took a very special angel, With a smile upon her face, Is what she left in my heart. Go with God sweet child, You will always be in my heart forever,Good-bye sweet Angel. Your great Aunt JoAnn Champion. Our Prayers are with you. God bless Bob, Flora, Bobby, Scott, Melinda Loving you always.
Dear sweet Marissa, Your passing has saddend us all I didn’t have a bond with you but your smile in your pictures and what we have heard of you, made it seem like we did. You are with God now, and may you rest in heaven. I know you had a loving heart and were very giving to others that were less fortunate than you, God keep you sweet angel, For in my heart that’s what you will always be to me. God Bless you, Your Great Uncle, Julio Cordaway.
Marissa-
I just wanted to say thanks for being someone that I can look up to. You are so beautiful inside and out. This still doesn’t seem real. Cheer won’t be the same without your smile and your crazy stories. I’m sad to see your life end this way…but I know you’re in a better place. Thanks again for always being so nice to me and making me feel important. I love you Marissa and I will truely miss you.
I did not know you but as a mother of a young person of about your age, my heart breaks for you and your parents. May you rest in peace beautiful girl and may God grant you the serenity that eluded you in this life. PLEASE…. anyone reading this, feeling the same way, remember those you leave behind. They are forever wounded and some never recover. I pray for Marissa’s parents and those who loved her, may God grant them the strength to go on. RIP Marissa.
john 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. you will be missed untill we meet agian
marissa.. wow honestly I don’t know where to start. I was at practice wen I gt the call & I was in complete shock. when I got home you were the only thing I could think about; what you were feeling at that time, why you did it… I knw we weren’t the BEST of friends, bt u were & always will be my team mate & my friend. we made history together (1st starstruck sr. hip hop team to win vegas nationals baby!) I will forever remember u as the happy girl I would bug at practice 🙂
rest in peace marissa, love & miss you girl!
My Sweet Marissa, I’m days too late and hours too late,for now I sit here with so many things running through my head,so many unanswered questions as for Why?Why?Why?I didn’t know you much cause I didn’t take the time.Not your fault but mine.I knew you for a bit and the person I saw in you was fun loving and so full of spirit.Your Grandma Floria did make the time to let us know how proud she was of you and how much she loved you,for that I loved you ,cause you filled my sisters heart with joy.I know you can hear me my Sweet Marissa,Your Grandma Floria said to me once when she’d speak of you “look at me just bragging”But thats not bragging thats love and being proud of you.Just being a proud Grandma thats what Grandmas do best and you know what makes Great Grandms? Children like you…All the stories I heard of you amazed me and once again you make me proud too know your our Guardian Angle.my heart & prayers goes out to those you left behind but our comfort is that one day we will reunite. R.I.P.
Your great Aunt,Emma
marissa,
why i have so much to tell u, how much pain were you goiing though to do this.? just know that i have always been here for you. i hope that all your pain is gone. watch over us plz. i ask that of you. writting on your casket was probably one of the hardest things i have ever had to do. it sucked. im going to miss standing next to you not cheering and talking about you know. only me and you knoe. haha i love watching you do your lil jumps for your boy. haha and always yelling at the boys because the sucked at the play they just did. i love you girl always in my heart. always missing you. come visit me someday in my dreams. i love you and forever.
-norma
Marissa,
You were my best friend in 7th grade. We did a lot together. We even got our pictures taken at the mall. I always looked up to you. It’s so sad that you’re gone, it feels like you’re on a vacation and you’ll be back in no time. I remember Sophomore year we had Creative Writing together. You would always tell me your crazy stories about the weekends and just anything random. When I saw you at school at all this year, you would smile at me and say “Hey Kels”. The last real conversation we had the first day of senior year. You just started talking to me in the library and we discussed classes. I always thought you were something else because you took the most ridiculous classes even if you didn’t want to. Even though we weren’t close in the end, I still miss you. You impacted my life so much. I hope you are at peace. I miss you and you will always be in my heart. Rest in peace, Marissa.
Marissa,
You were such an inspiration to so many people. I looked up to you and aspired to be as successful as i knew you would be. I loved coming to practice and hearing about your busy bee schedule and seeing you dart out of starstruck’s doors to your next practice or game. Or even watching you study on APanatomy flashcards, or thumbing through your insanely dense Calculus book.
You were probably one of the most beautiful people I’ve ever met inside and out. You had a caring heart and were always willing to help me out when I had trouble with our ‘freaky’ routine. Performing with you was amazing and you had such an incredible talent to put on a show for the crowd. I can’t believe I’ll never have the oppurtunity to do so again.. Your service today was beautiful and it left a lifelasting impression on me. I love you dearly and my family and I send our best to yours. I hope you are at peace now and I hope you are watching over all of your caring friends and family.
we miss your beautiful smile already babygirl…
marissa,
i dont know where to start…it seems like it was juss the other day me you and krysta were at church and youu came up with this brilliant idea to get up and leave in the middle of the service to go on an “adventure”… i didnt really wantt to go but im glad i did i had thee funnest time skipping down the street wiith youu leavingg krysta at that empty apartment complex and watchingg youu flirt withh those little boyss so youu could get them to sell you their scooter for a dollar haha…words cant express how muchh i wishh i couldd relive that dayy…im goingg to miss youu and your beautiful face SOO MUCH butt i knoww thatt yourr better now and whatever youu were goingg throughh doesnt matter anymore because yourr free of pain(:…i never told youu that i looked up too you soo muchh youu were everything i wanted be! I love youu Scooterr Whoree<3
lovee tiffyy
p.s. i'll hold it down at yourr daddys housee for youu(:
I didn’t ever get to know you… but i did go to the same high school as you… and its heart breaking that someone i went to the same school as… is lost… I may not be known to you… but i have seen you around. And going by all the messages on here alone… i know that you will be more then missed by many… One thing is for sure… even though you will truly be missed down here… you are in a better place… A place we will all be meeting again sometime in all of our futures. R.I.P.
Hi it’s me again. I feel I have left so much out in trying to say how I feel about you and your loving family. I have this picture of you running in and out trying to do everything in your planner. I can see you running in your Grandma and Grandad’s house or driving up the drive way and your Grandparents excited to see you. It seems your planner was quiet full. Maybe your planner is just as full on your journey with our creator. I know you will at your time come back in a dream,a aroma in a sense that the one you are visting knows it’s you. Your a very special spirit here and on your journey. I pray for the comfort you can give and the comfort you will get. You deserve nothing less,and I know you will get nothing less.As in your life form. We saw how much Love you gave while you were here for such a short time. They say we are here to learn our life lessons. I believe you have done above and beyond what was expected of you. I pray you know this. Reading your stories told by your friends and family proves how the Love you shared was one on one.
Marissa-
I have been trying for a week now to come here and post something. What can I say. I knew you and played with you when you were itty bitty. My dad (your uncle) and your papa (my uncle)and the rest of our families would spend every weekend together up until the time you were about four. And then we all lost touch and I never got to see you grow up into this amazing woman. I am sorry I missed watching you grow up, getting to know one another and being together as family. On Sunday during the viewing there were lots of pictures of you growing up and I felt I at least got to see you grow up in pictures. I know you already know how amazing you were and how much you meant to your grandpa and grandma Flora and your mom and dad. I hope you have found the peace and serenity that you yearned for. I will never forget you and will always remember you as forever young and forever loved by so many.
To read all of this as a parent breaks my heart…Please remember that there is always somone who will listen to you…find help, the pain of these actions is tremendous. You are all loved, and life is to be cherished, please let those around you know how much you love them, and always understand that there is someone to help you through the times when you feel like you can’t make it alone. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. This world lost someone amazing.
I was so shocked when i found out about this tragedy…. I was at a city council meeting and Kaitlin called me, at first i was speechless then once it hit me i coulnd’t stop crying. You were such a beautiful person inside and out, i’ll always remember our fun times in spanish with senora for two years in a row… You were the best spanish partner ever and you always made me laugh, especially the time when we had to do our commercial for a product to sell and you wanted it to be lip gloss because you said ” you had such big lips” lol I think you called it Labios sedosos which means silky lips in spanish… Good times!!! I love you girly you will forever be in my heart, my thoughts and prayers go out to your family.. <3 u alwayz Tiana
What can I say, you will be missed. The times I saw you, you where always so happy and beautiful (just like your mother) I will forever remember. As I will forever keep you and your family in my thoughts. We love you very much Marissa. May god bless you!
The task I set before myself
is one that can’t be done.
To try and describe in words
someone that for words there are none.
I think back on the times with you,
the good, the “bad”, and the misunderstood.
I would not take a second back,
I swear– not even if I could.
The “bad” times were never bad,
just a different part of you I think.
I love you just the way you were,
always on the edge, teetering right on the brink.
The goods times brought such highs,
such feelings of fullness and love.
I wish I would have known then,
this fucked up plan from above.
For if I had known this,
I promise on everything I have today,
I’d scoop you up and hold you, look you in the eye and plea,
“Marissa, please believe me, this will all turn out okay.”
I’m so sorry I didn’t see babe,
how truly bad things were inside for you.
My lack of understanding,
has left you gone and us in agony now too.
So now we sit and think of you,
read stories on your blog.
Memories from countless others,
help to clear this heart-wrenching fog.
They seem to shout: amazing, inspiring,
beautiful, giving and perfect in everyway.
Well, this your family has always known,
but it feels so different to hear others say.
I find comfort that it seems everyone already knows,
since this task I set before myself is one that cannot be done.
I can’t explain you in words, Ris,
because, without a doubt, for you, words there are none.
Marissa,
I know you didnt really know me but I went to Colony Oak with you and I also went on the NY&DC trip with you and we where in the same room with 2 other girls. when I heard about what happened I couldnt belive it was true till the next day when not a lot of people when gone from school. Even though we didnt know each other I still have one memerie of you that will stay with me the rest of my life and it was that one night you where really hyper in the midel of the night and we where all bored so you just said “Hey lets have a pillow fight” so just 4 girls had I think a good hour of a pillow fight. That will always be with me for the rest of my life.
I love you as a friend i wish i knew and i will always miss seeing you at school but you will always be in my heart.
I was planning on killing myself the same day that you did.
I didn’t, obviously.
I don’t know what to say. You were perfect in every way, and everyone knew it. I hope you are in a happier place.
Whoever wrote that last blog about killing yourself:
I can only hope that you aren’t feeling like that anymore, I’ve been struggling for days to put something into words to write here-to thank everyone for their warm thoughts regarding my daughter but I haven’t been able to. But what I can say is that I know and I’ve seen that my daughter has touched many lives in the time that she was here and I can only hope in her passing that she can reach out someway and touch you and give you strength to get through whatever it is you are going through and to stay here with those that love and care about you. Please talk to somebody, please. If you feel like you don’t have anyone that you can reach out to, feel free to call me–and I’ll tell you right now, just like I always told Marissa, we can work through anything. I wish she would have reached out and I hope that you do. Robert 209-380-5035.
or if you are more comfortable talking to a female, please feel free to call me, Amanda 209-556-7679. There are so many other options besides killing yourself, even if it seems like there isn’t. It is so important that you talk to someone that can help point out things that you may be blinded to because of your pain.
Bob~
My heart ached when I heard the news..We are so sorry for your loss..from reading this blog your daughter touch many people in different ways..We haven’t seen each other in years but please know that your in our thoughts and prayers.
its been 12 days..it still doesnt seem real sissy. i wish you could be here right now, i need you so bad. need to talk to you about everything..i feel like im in a dream. guess what though? your funeral was in the church that you me tommy and tyler went too 🙂 with that abandoned bus in the back, oh those were the days. that was about the only thing that made us smile these past few days. i wish i didnt have to go on without you. i wish you ould see how much everyone misses you. i want you here with me. this is the biggest change of my life..i love you and i miss you, life will never be the same. 🙁
Marissa, even though we only saw you a handful of times throughout the year, you were an important part of our family. We will always remember your bubbly personality and big smile. Reading all the wonderful things about you only confirms how special you were……and loved.
There has been a group of people who have been going to Ripon High School every day since Marissa’s passing to pray at 6:30 am to 7:30 am. Due to a lot of guidelines and protocols those are the only hours we are allowed to be on the campus. But we DO have permission to be there during those hours. This IS NOT a Ripon High function, we are doing this on our own. This Wednesday we ARE assembling a group of people no matter if they are in junior high, high school, college or even an adult. We are going to meet this Wednesday December 16th, 2009 from 6:30 am to 7:30 am in the front of Ripon High, and just pray for everyone and everything associated with Ripon High. The family, friends, school and faculty all need our prayer and they need our support. I know it’s early in the morning, but I am just asking that you share this with everyone, try and get as many students, parents or staff to attend, and show people we truly are different and God has a plan in this troubling time. Our community, fellow schools, and our youth need us right now more than ever. I hope you can be there and share this with me and the rest of our surrounding communities. Any questions please just reply to this!Thanks in advance and hope to see you all there!!
I have been in your life since the day you were born. You were always so cute. You came and spent the night with Tara and Christal and when you left you had written me a note and hid it in a box on my coffee table. A month later I found it and it said “Yaya, thanks for letting me sleep over. I had fun”. When I told you I found the note, you could not stop laughing and said you had been waiting for me to find it. A whole month is a long time for a 5 year old to wait! You are my great-granddaughter, I never use the word step. I watched you on stage, when you were going thru the dance period. You always looked so cute in all those fancy dresses. I can still hear myself yelling and clapping til my hands turned red. You gave me some special moments. I will never forget you. Melinda and Bob, no matter what, it takes two to bring up such a wonderful girl. One that was truly loved by all that knew her. My sorrow goes out to both of you and to the rest of the family that all loved her. She will always be in our hearts.
Marissa I finally have the streangth to say a few words I love u and we were so close there r too many memories to say….I miss u so much it’s scares me so much to know I will never see u again 🙁 There is so much going on right now and I wish u were here to help me through them u were te one who alwys saved me from myself but ur gone and it’s so sad like I can’t even imagine words to explain the depression right now…I feel like no on truly knew the real u baby girl cuz no one was ever allowed in but I still till this day feel like u were a sister to me well u and me know the memories we share and allll the talks ok well there is so much more to say just not enough words to say them with it all sums up to I love u an will never forget u ever
Marissa..
There are about a thousand questions running through my mind. The one that first comes to mind is why? I cannot fully understand the reason why you left us in this way.. I know you had problems that you told me about, but I had no idea it was this bad. I wish there was something I could have said or done that could have changed the path you have decided to take. I feel selfish for saying that I want you back here, but your solution was not the answer to your problems. I just wish you would have told me more.. I talked to my teachers and my Government teacher Mr. Kirk told me that a way to make myself feel better was to write a letter to you…even though you will not get it, it will help calm me and let me ask any questions I may have. People say that you are happier now and in a better place. As long as that is the truth, I will learn to accept the fact that you are really gone. I still find myself crying every night trying to understand. Work is not the same without your joyful presence or beautiful smile. Standing at the host stand where you once stood breaks me down, and gives me the chills. I cannot bear to stand there without you, knowing that you will never stand there again.. It’s so unreal to me, because just two days before you passed away, we were standing talking to each other, playing crypto in the newspaper. :’)
Marissa, I know you are no longer with us, but to me you will always be here with me. I know you are watching over all of us. Make sure to watch over Christal, as well as the rest of your family. They are hurting, but are being strong and making it through. Everyone at Applebee’s’ misses you very much. Your funeral is today, I will be there for you. It will hurt, but I want to see you. I love you very much and will see you soon. Until then, watch over us. You will forever be in my thoughts and prayers. Rest in peace. <3
Love always and forever, Cassie.
Marissa.well it still seems weird that your gone. Everyday since you have left us i walk into spanish and still see that empty desk behind me where you should be. I always think its just like normal when you would be gone for a few days, then come back. but thats not how it is anymore. the day i heard about what happened i didnt know what to say at all. i thought it was fake. but it was real. i still remember laughing at you at the football game with matt. you dancing with your ipod and spitting your sunflower seeds out onto the bleachers (: you told us we were you least favorite couple. and i found that very funny. but monday before you left us i remember you were in class wearing a skirt and jeans. and matt laughed at you and you made up some weird thing about how if it was hot you could take off your pants and if it was cold you could leave them on.i laughed at you and you just smiled. you seemed so happy that day ): but just the other day i went to get my binder off the counter in class and i moved one out of the way to get mine and it was yours…i wondered what to do with it. so i just left it there and it made me sad to think you were really gone. then i started thinking about when i first met you. in 8th grade you were at weston for a volleyball game and i talked to you in the bathroom. you were telling me how you just got your belly button pierced for having straight A’s. i thought that was the coolest thing ever too. every time i saw you, you were so happy and just…Marissa. lots of us miss you. i hope where ever you are that you are happy now.
love Jesika
marissa…..idk were to start or even to begin…everytime i think of you tears warm my eyes and i become speechless….we have known each other since before we could speak….i cant believer you are gone i miss you and love you beyond words…everytime i think of you i think of hot august nights with me you cody and nikki and my mom grandma your grandma and grandpa and everyone with us….or i think of going to your birthday partys when we were little….i think of how much we grew apart as we got older i thought bout you alot lately to before this indcident….but i still will always remember how close we were wen we were little….I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH….More than you could ever imagine….i love you from your cousin cheyenne (aka bubbba)
Hey girl. Todays been a rough one for me and i want you too know i love you and miss you very much. Everyday feels so blank with out you being here. I want you also to know that i will love you always and forever. I cant wait to see your smile again someday. All i do is stare at your beautiful face when i feel lost and i always remember the times you would make me smile and do stupid stuff with me.
I love you marissa, i wish you could be here with me and everyone else.
Heyy riss well today was one of the first days that i have actually cried since the week that this all happened. i just want you to know that i am always thinking aboutyou. i got a bracelet today that says hope on it and i can only hope that you are in a much better place now and looking over all of us.. hopefully you realize what you are missing out on too. i cant believe that it is going to be a month in a couple of days. it has gone by pretty fast. but i wish i could just rewind to that last day we had together. i hope your enjoying christmas up there love. watch over all your family and us girlieess. cant wait till the day i get to see you again love.
I know today is a blessed day for the Birthday of Jesus. I know Marissa is celebrating while she is on her journey. We are the ones who are at a loss. I can’t express enough the sadness I feel for Marissa’s family and her friends. I want to call and ask you Bobby and Scott how you are but that wouldn’t be the question to ask. I wanted to let you both now how much you both mean to me and to my family. Ever since you were lil guys you have been special. I know you both are grown and have your own lives but at the same time I know how much pain there is in your lives. I can’t say I know what your feeling because every pain we feel is diffrent then the next persons. I have had a few losses in my life sister and brother who should still be here but are not. They are on there journey as well. I miss them still. Today was a teary one for me. I can’t imagin your feeling. Today of all days. This coming year is going to be tough alot of firsts as you already know. Saying that you can bring up alot of good times you shared like on Marissa’s Birthday,Easter,Summertime,the list goes on. Keep in your heart the good memories. I remember last year at this time we were with your family laughing and sharing wonderful memories. I will cherish them forever. I was told and wanted to remind you both there isn’t a right or wrong way to greive. I learned this when I lost my Dad,Sister,and Brother. My counsler reminded me of this. It hurts and words help but it’s your pain and your feelings that you have to deal with,in your time. Just remember we are here if ever you need to talk or cry. I love you both. Dee
its unbelievable and mind boggling how much you’ve changed my life. I think about you everyday. It seems to me, that everything I do, reminds me of you….we’ve done it all together. I can put a memory of us to everything in my daily routine. i wish i could tell you how much i miss you & truly cherish you….i have a never ending hurt for the absence of yourself. you were one of my truest best friends, & i’m a mess without you.
I hope one day I will regain happiness without you. It just takes time i’m told…I believe that its only getting worse as time goes on…reality has sunken in, and I don’t really know how to deal with it.
Marissa
It’s a really strange feeling when you leave home and when you comeback and then everythings changed. During training I thought that everything in Ripon would just freeze until I came back. I still remember you bailing me out of Pre Cal, drawing randomass animals all over our homework, and Mrs Rohtob getting mad at us for talking.
I didn’t really get to know you that well and i really regret that. You taught me how to live for the now, and to be less of a jackass. My memories of you will come with me to Afganistan. Thank you Marissa for shareing a small part of your life with me 🙂 it was a blessing.
I no I just wrote something the other day but cant help but feel there are to many things i left out…….Its been said many times and many ways marissa but we still all miss you….I have changed a lot…..me and you grew up from to different worlds…..everything has always been within reach for you….you have always made everything you do look easy….I cant say I hated it because I love you…I just wish I had some of the opportunitys you did growing up…having a father like uncle bobby would have made my life a lot easyer….my mom has alawys been there but not as much as i would have liked….everythings been a fight for the both of us….yours is just recogognized now and for the wrong reasons….you should be with us marissa….x-mas has come and gone and on that day i woke up and put my head back in my pillow and did my best to hold back tearz….i thought of you all day…i thought why does today feel not so speacial….now i no we only shared x-mas eve together but that was what helped make x-mas more comfrotable to me…..was seeing a side of my family that was happy that had there own struggles and problems….but always made it a point to get over it threw the holidays or at least whenever they got around each other…..I have been going out to modesto lately to go party….and whoever I was with going I would always brag to them that you were my cousin….I didnt give a f*** if they knew you or not i just wanted them to no that i had one of the most smart and talented persons I could ever meet or have met in my family…….Man the day I got the phone call about what happend I went in to shock and couldnt believe it…….I still cant believe it my broken heart wont let me….. I remember i was going to my current ex gf’s house to go drop off some movies and a cd and….I seen a wierd look on my granmothers face as she called me in to her room before i could leave…..and I guess dawn had called her and told her whatever she knew about the situation…..and my heart started beating once she told me the news…..my face droped and tearz came out so rappidly i didnt no what to do but tell me my mom…..ever since then marissa you have been on my mind so frequently and all I can do is hope you and that beautiful smile of yours made it threw those gates of heaven….and that on the days me and others miss you most you smile upon us and help us threw those rainy situations
hey sis..
so christmas has past, it was a hard one without you and im more than glad its over now. my days have been harder lately, i wish i could say things have been getting better for me but they havent. i miss you more and more everyday. your missing so much that i wish you could have been here for..man its really real now. i cry still at least a few times a day. i hope that will stop soon but i doubt it. well i hope your doing okay up there sissy, watch over me please. i love you more than anything, cant wait to see you again some day.
Marissa.
I just wanted to say that i miss you so much, and i cannot sleep. My mind is filled with thoughts, and memories of you. This is the first time that I have really cried since your funeral. It hurts to realize you are gone. I love you so much. And i miss recieving your help up at the host stand when I’m playing crypto. :’)
I LOVE YOU.
rissy..its been one month today. i still think of this like a horrible dream, i juss wanna wake up and see you in your bed cross the room. why did this happen sis..i hate that you must have thought no one would understand. i would of understood! i always understood everything you told me i wish you would of come and talked to me about this. it still is hardly real for me unless i sit and think about it for a long time. im not the same person anymore. it feels so different without you, im so different without you. i miss you coming home at night and waking me up jus so i could make you food (which i always ended up doing) then we would end up talking for hours and laughing about everything. you told me stories bout everything and i did the same. now i will never have that back. i feel like your jus away or something and you will be back soon. i dont know if i will ever be able to grasp that this is real and that your really gone. gosh marissa its soo unbearable wihtout you. i jus wish things were different i could go on forever, as you can see im having a really hard day. please try to help me through it or something. hope your doing good up their..im sure you are. 🙂 i love you more than anything sissy. and i miss you more than words can explain :'(
Bobby, Amanda, Krysta, Bob, Flora and Scott,
We’re thinking of you especially today. Hard to believe it has been a month. Not sure how you measure time when the world changes out from under you as it did Dec 1.
Anyway, just want to let you know we love you and we care so much. Wish there was something more we could do, but just know that Marissa was indeed special and will always be to her friends and family.
Love,
Laura
Riss. Formal was last night and that dance was no where near as fun as i had with you always grinden on me. I miss you so much baby words cant even explain the pain i have. your on my mind every day of my life and i love you and miss you so much. you have affected my life so much i wish we can go back and help you. girl you should have been there last night! i hope your having as much fun up there as we use too! Love you marissa<3.
My stomach gets sick when i realize i can’t bring you back. i don’t want this pain anymore. i miss you more than words can explain..we had a really nice time with Greg today he has been so wonderful, doing so much for us. sissy gosh i never wanted to loose you. ugh i fucking miss you! i love you..idk what to do without you.
Marissa i was thinking about you all day todayy. i wish you wouldnt of done this. im missing you so muchh and jus wanna call you so i can be able to tell you everythingg that has been going on. i lovve you so much girlie.
riss..i wish i knew when it was gunna get “better” here without you like everyone says it will. i dont think it will ever really get better, ill jus have to become content with this new reality. ugh i dont want this to be real. i havent slept well the past week or so. i keep waking up with these weird dreamss. and they jus make me cry. i dont like them one bit. i hope you know how much i truely miss you and how much i want you back here..this fucking pain sucks. i jus wanna be able to hug you forever! im missing a piece of my heart..hope your doing great up there, i love you with all my heart.
🙁
Hey Marissa, I got a lot on my mind tonight and having a tough time falling asleep, just thinking about you, we all miss you a lot and wish you were still here with us. Can’t wait till we all get to be with you again someday. Keep watching over all of us!
Marissa i love you and miss you so much youve been on my mind lately so i wanted to stop by and say hi. I miss your beautiful smile.
Love you girl always and forever:)
Dang… i heka started crying just reading all this.. you have been on my mind a l0t lately.. i had a dream b0ut yu the 0ther day.. we were in class and you were sitting next to some people that i talk to and i went over to say hi to everyone. well i bent over and you saw my nails and you were all “aileen!! i love your nails. i need to get mine done. the next time you go give me a call k?” and i just looked at you and smiled and sed fersure. i woke up crying. i told my mom bout it the next day and she said “….she came to visit you aileen” my heart sank when she said that. i can’t believe your gone girl. i miss you so terribly much. you were such an inseperation to me. i remember for my 13th birthday party you came over. we had a little dance going on in my garage and i remember i had the hugest crush on one of the artherton brothers haha. and i went outside because i saw him dancing with someone else. you came out and talked to me. you were all like “giiiirl dont worry about him!! you are so beautiful and you can do so much better than that. now come on, lets go back inside and dance besides its YOUR party!” ohh man did you make me laugh so much. now that i look back i was so stupid for getting all butt hurt haha. your probably laughing also. dang that was so long ago. i wish i can rewind to that exact day when we were talking outside my house. i hope you know a lot of people miss you!! as you can tell from all of the blogs. wow, you know i was always so jealous of you. you always had a smile walking down the school hallways. you are sooo beautiful marissa. but now that i think about it. its not Godly to be jealous over someone. well…. i will talk to you some other day.
i miss you hun!
love you
its all i can do to fight back tears as i go through everyday. you never leave my mind. i love you with all my heart sissy!
): miss you more than anything in this world
heyy my baby girl. my gosh. fighting these tears is horrible. I never thought I would have to go through so much pain in such a short amount of time. I don’t know what to say. all I can say is that I miss you. and I love you. and life without you is just not the same. I miss our talks in leadership, and I miss your crazy self during our fashion shows. you already know how much you meant to all of us. nothing can replace the warm smile, the laughter, the memories…all I can do is remember the good times. and hope that one day I will hear your laugh again. I love you Marissa so so much. I miss you. love you!
Whenever I can’t sleep I just come to your website and read what everyone says and it brings me comfort each time. Just seeing how you greatly impacted and touched everyones life in a positive way. We miss you a lot, stay close to all of us. Good night Marissa!
well i know i just left a comment like two days ago…but i just got home from the basketball game and i was totally thinking about you. this girl started doing flips up and down the sidlines and i totally remembered how you ALWAYS used to do that. haha that was like the highlight of it all.
i guess thats it. love you girly. miss you with all my hear..every day. <3
hi lover…so we played RC on Friday. That little girl started doing flips again! I remember last year you two had a little battle out on the basketball court. you lost to her!! haha, you were so pissedd. I miss you soo much, 2 months tomorrow, I CANNOT BELIEVE IT! UGH! I just wish you’d come back NOW! I have so much to tell you….seriouslyyyy 😉 Ive missed ‘our’ talks, and i’ve missed MY BEST FRIEND! I’m writing my creative writing paper on you…yet in my paper you come back to life…ha, I wish I could make my dreams come true! PLEASE watch over everyone. Its finally becoming my reality that your not here, and I hate it….. 🙁 I will always love you. YOU KNEW THAT…..miss you always babygirl.<333
lol, I remember that tumbling battle like it was yesterday…her dad and I were in the stands and every time we saw her face after that little girl took her turn we would say “don’t do it, don’t do it Marissa” and then of course she would go again, lol…oh, how bad she wanted me to spot her on a tuck when we were leaving so that she could win!…wish I would have :_( That was a good time though, she sure could win over a crowd…Kaitlyn, I hope you are hanging in there honey, stop by some time when you are in Modesto
Hey girlie….it been so hard this week. i think i am finally realizing that you aren’t coming back. i have missed you so much. there are no words to describe how much you meant to me. you were my shoulder to cry on when things got tough with my dad. i knew you understood how tough it was to have divorced parents. i felt like you were the only one who ever understood what i was going through. everyday i keep wishing that it hadnt happened. cassie and i were just talking last night about how we wished we had a time machine so we could go back in time and stop you and tell you how much you meant to us. ive missed talking to you about all the college stuff and everything else. i miss seeing your smile and being around your up beat mood. i feel bad because on the day of your funeral i took a poem with me that i had wrote about you. i read it to your family and promised your mom and dad i would take them a copy. its been hard for me to keep that promise but i am going to try to finally do so some time soon. i couldnt even stand to stay in ap bio with out you there. it was just to hard going to that class and knowing you wouldnt be there. i will always miss you.
love,
Kaitlyn
2 months today. are you kidding me, it cant be real. i want you back here with me..with all of us. today is a hellah shitty day. everything that could’ve went wrong did. i wish you could be here with me. to help me through everything marissa you were the one who kept me strong. i feel so weak without you here. i still cry every single day about you. everyone keeps telling me i have all the memories but they only help a lil..like i remember when we were about five and we went to yosemite in our matching outfits and you lost your shorts down the river..dad had to go get them 🙂 that was funny. we have so many memories i just dont want them to start to fade away. i wish you could have been here today and everyday that there is to come. i know you cant i gotta get that thru my head. its just not working. anyways i love you with all my heart sissy. hope your having a good day up there and your watching out for all of us.
You have been on my mind a lot. I drove home for my parents house today and I realized it had been two months today. Wow… I can’t believe that… I know you are watching out for all of us… thank you for that… I only hope that your parents, grandparents, other family and friends are trying to get through this, I know its been hard on everyone…Love you and miss you…
heyy babyygirll its hard to think that its already been two months without you. i feel like your just at harvard over summer again. or going through one of your phases and not going thru school. everytime i go to text all of the girls i want to send the txt to you too. i miss you so much and wish we could just bring you backk. i hope your having funn up there girlie. i miss you soo muchh. visitt me soon pleasee i have a lot to fill you in on. love you babyygirll.
hey marissa. last night i just tossed an turned knowing what today was. its been two long months already and now reality is starting to set in, your gone 🙁 everytime i closed my eyes last night your face would just be there i miss seeing your face i want to see it in person again and stop seeing it in my dreams. I had a dream that i was dreaming these past couple months and i woke up and this never happennend i wish it could be like that girl. its so hard to fight these tears now that its becoming real to me. please watch over kamie and kaitlyn they really need you. and i want you too know im taking care of them as much as i can. i love you and always will. please watch over us all. love you riss:)
Hey Marissa. I’ve finally come on here to write something. Just seeing everything that people have written to you makes it so much more real all over again. I’ve been trying to just not think about you and Dillon, but i do everyday. And to me things just still arent real. It’s like all of this is a bad dream. I have dreams about you all the time and i miss you so much. AP english with you isnt the same. I have no one to cheat off of, and no one to help my lazy ass, because you somehow always managed to get all the work done and i still have no idea how you did it. And i never really said thank you to you, for always being there or always making me laugh, or for always being the only girl friend that i had who would talk to me about politics and books. Your intellect and witty remarks are always missed in 1st period, you were always the one to throw something thought provoking out there, and i really miss that. Me and Kaitlyn both miss you sooooo much. I even miss your crazy driving, really. I have my lisence now (finally!) and on my way home sometimes i just drive by your house and remember all of the good times we had in your room, like me doing your makeup, watching your cheer videos for your london trip and making fun of the lady, watching kaitlyn wrestle briana, me telling you about all of my boy problems, when you me and kaitlyn would come to your house and knock on your window…lemons and cigarettes for breakfast! ill never forget you Marissa, you will always me in my heart. Rest in Paradise girl, love you
Marissa, you were like a sister to me. i love you so much. and its 02-03-10 and you still have me crying. i know that you would want me to be happy but honestly i cnt be when i kno your gone. its hard going to school seeing where me and you would run into eachother or hang out. i remeber the first day i meet you like it was yesturday. i needed help around school haha. you always seemed to be there for me and little did i kno form the time we met to 2 years later you would be gone! i cnt belive your gone. but honey i know you will save me a spot in heaven. watch over me ok and look out for me. i love you. REST IN PEACE. ~Kayla
heyy there marissa(: i was just sitting and listening to my iPod and a song came on the reminded me of our leadership fashion shows. the one to be specific that you stripped off your zebra jacket and your scarf and all that. haha that was so hilarious(: i miss you girly. i remember when we were sitting in leadership and you asked me if i could take your spot that night to go to the board meeting. and i was like yeah ill go! haha then that night i texted you cause my sister was sick and i couldnt go. you were like “well you better get someone else to do it or else we’ll have to go to like five of them!” and you were so mad. and then you called me like a half hour later realizing who you were actually talking to and that it was me! that was hilarious, and you felt so bad. haha miss you girly, cant wait to see you some day! <3
Marissa, honey where do i start. who can i go on? and who can save me? i cnt save myself because your the only person who can. i feel empty inside and i need you here with me. it sucks going to school and seeing where i first meet you or were we would hang out. i never knew the things that made me laugh then make me cry now. i made you a memorial page on myspace. heres the link http://home.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user
you were a classmate, friend, bestfriend, and big sister now your a memory that will NEVER be forgotten. its hard writeing this without crying. i cnt wait to see you again. and maybe you will show me around heaven also(: just remeber save me a sopt right next to you. and look over me please. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! rip Marissa
~Kayla<3
hey Marissa, well i was listening to your song again this morning and man i really miss you please help me have a good day today. i dnt think i can go on anymmore at school): i love you honey. rest in peace.
-Kayla Buriani
Senior nights tonight. I remembe during football season, we stood in line together…you, your dad, myself, and mi madree. you were blabbing on and on about something that totally made no sense to me, oh and how much we didn’t want to have to walk down the football field infront of everyone! wish you were here, watch over everyone 🙂
marissa,
i was thinking bout you as i struggled through an ap bio test the other day.lol and calculus as well..ick.lol i thought of a story to tell you about…well you know…no need to say it. and got all excited juss to realize you werent there. i really miss you. my loves with you and someday i hope to see you again. watch over us until then kay?
Hey Marissa, there’s a lot of good things going on in the honor and memory of your name! I know you are up above smiling and proud of all the things that are going on. We wish you were here with us, I hold onto the fact that I know your watching over us. Stay close!
marissa. 2 months already. its so scary to think that you have already been gone that long. A lot of people miss you so much and always will. I often miss seeing you around school. I read the article in the modesto bee the other day about the “Marissa’s Closet”that your mom and aunt? i believe, are starting. It’s a really great cause and will help a lot of girls. Watch over everone kay marissa. miss ya always (:
Love always Jesika (half of your least favorite couple)
heyy babyygirll. haha so todayy the story got brought up about that one time when you were spending the night and it was just us and my mom lol. and my mom freaked out think someone was in my backyard but really it was just a bucket rolling around lol. madee me laughh lol. love you girlie and i miss you every singlee dayy.
oh my oh my how much youve missed! i miss our talks! i miss everything we did together! you will always be my virgin buddy & wildthanng! 😉 i love you babygirrrl. always(:
Marissa, oh how everyone misses you! You were truely one of the nicest girls i knew and one of the best cheerleaders on the squad 🙂 I will never forget when it was the game against Caleveras and we were late! So we had to run.. o boy did that suck. But I will never forget the encouraging words and how much you helped me that night. You will never be forgotten and we miss you! Watch over us here at Ripon High <3
miss you sis. wish you were here more than anything.
life isnt the same, i need you so bad right now..please watch over me especially right now. please keep me strong sis. i love you alot. rest in peace baby sister 😀 i know you hated it when i called you that since we are only a month apart lol but that always made you laugh. 🙂
So as you know it took my lazy ass quite a while to actually have the balls to come to this n read over what people have said about u. I’m on my way to arizona right now n u popped in my mind cuz im eating a fruit rollup. Oh n btw it was damn good cuz I no u were wondering haha. I know ur probly hella makin fun of me when u see me cry over u when I’m alone all the time. Haha I’m a weak lil shit I no. I miss whenever u told me ur stories n how u would do this flutter with ur eyes when it got to a really dramatic ending. I remember how u would always wear that bright ass red lipstick. I remember how I would scream for u during your cheers n tell u how hot u were n u would busy up laughing in the middle of ur cheer, n I didn’t even care that everyone was staring at me. I member on the one homegame how u were sick and ask me to go like on this mission to find all ur stuff haha n then u wrote me a praise for it. I still have that btw. I’m mad that ur not here for me but only out of selfishness, because I’m truely happy that ur happy. Just get sad everyonce in a while when I think about the things that “shoulda been” n realize they won’t b. God bless Marissa n tell all my family up there hi (just look for hella funny mexicans n a few crazy white people). Tell Dillon I will always give him my change n thanks for helping me out the one day. He will no what I’m talking about… Well I’m about to get on my plane… So i will write again someday. Love u
ur morgasm
Marissa-track started earlier this week. no matter who is talking to me or how many times someone tries to get my attention my mind is wandering sonewhere else; mainly thinking about how the team would be dofferent if you were still a part of it. ive struggled the past couple of months to remember all the times we shared the past two seasons but to be honest i took all those moments for granted because i never thought they would be gone quite like this. the main thing i remember is us always watching baseball boys practice while we did our vaulting workouts. a few of us have kept that tradition going =) this is going to be a long and hard season for all of us knowing you wont be there to share the moments with us. i still hope at each practice you will walk on to the track and start warming up with us like none of this ever happened. there will always be room on the team for you. please watch our clumsy butts this season and hope for the best for us cause i know that some of us still think of you every practice and still wish you the best in your new endeavours 🙂 with love forever
Hi it’s me I just needed to say how your memories are remembered. I know your an angel watching over thoughs who need your guidness and your wisdom to help make there journey through life a lil easier. You were an angel here on this side with out even knowing your ablities. I know your journey on ther other side is already a full one. Cheyenne saw your spirit the other day he was getting on bart and your spirit sat infront of him. He wanted to take a picture and share it but he didn’t think that would be kewl. I believe your spirit was there for a second. He really needed that the next day who knows you let him know that you were watching knowing the fate of his friend. It happened the next nite. He was shot in the back 4 times as an attemped robbery. He was a hero with out knowing it as well. He saved his girfriends life by making her get down. He didn’t make it he was taken off life support yesterday from what I understand. But you know this already. Cheyenne really is having a hard time dealing with this. Give him a touch of your kindness. He talks of your spirit often. I am writing this hoping to share how we miss you. I believe your spirit was put here and then taken back for a lot of reasons. You shared alot with others and your kindness will live on. I talk to your Gram and she sounds so courageous. She is the glue that is helping everyone through this storm. You know this already. I hope I made sense writing this. I wanted you to know how your missed and how you showed your spirit to Cheyenne the other day. I believe this. I want him to hold on to this to know he can hold on to memories and remember it will be ok not the same but ok. Thank you agian. Dee
I can’t explain how sad I am to know your gone… you were alway so nice and good to me. Even though we didn’t really hang out I always liked talking to you when I’d see you during break or lunch.
I wish this wouldn’t have ended like this, but I know you are in a better place now and hopefully I’ll see you again some day again.
Rest in Peace Marissa.
Well Marissa.. you were one girl that I never really got to know. You always looked so beautiful and happy walking on campus with that smile on your face. I still don’t know why you did it.. why you couldn’t have just waited. That’s nothing anyone can change now though. Hopefully you are happier now in the place you are at.
Rest in peace Marissa.
My condolences go out to your family and close friends.
-Sincerely, Robert Volk.
Marissa,
you promised. you told me that you would never do this to me. why, why did you have to do this. i love you i could have been there to help you. what am i going to do without you now. i think about all the crazyy times we have had together ever since 5th grade. all that time and we only got in one fight can you believe that. you were my best friend, like a sister to me. i told you everything and knew that i could alwasys count on you. i wish that it didnt have to end like this. dont you remember mine urs and kaitlyns talk when we were camping, or us drinking hot coco at ur house. you had so much going for you yet so much holding you back. it still isnt real for me. iwant you to just call me and tell me that it is all just a joke so you can hear me laugh. i dont know how im going to make it or be able to sit during gov without you there. you were the one reason i did the class riss i didnt want to disappoint you. i love you with all my heart and you were one of the greatest friends that i will ever have no one can replace you. just come back already; ill even let you talk in spanish to me 🙂 please visit me and watch over me. i love you and i hope you are able to read this and see how much i miss you.
Forever and always your Bestie with the crazyyy laugh <3
Kamie
At times life brings us situations we have no control over. Sometimes we are faced with situations and we don’t know how or if we will make it through them. The clouds can seem thick and you can’t see the outcome. You will never forget her or the memories you shared, but as time goes on and you grow older it becomes easier to face life’s situations. With time it will be easier to think of her, and have memories of moments you shared without shedding tears and with only fond memories. Until then, keep your head-up, be strong, and remember that she is now being well taken care of!
Dear Marissa Mcleod,
So I remember the first time I found out who you were. You were the sexy anchorwoman on Colony Oak’s very own CNN. I was new to Colony Oak that year. You were a big, bad eighth grader while I was in seventh grade. As time passed, I noticed how fun you were. You were a beautiful sophisticated woman. You were neither a nerd, or a slut. You were Marissa McLeod; the girl who could cheer, party, and get a 4.2 GPA all at the same time. Remarkable! You worked so hard and I wish you could have waited to get out of Ripon. You were that much closer to going to Harford.
I won’t forget our last memory at Nick’s party this fall break. I’m glad we took that shot 🙂 and I will cherish that memory.
In my eyes, you were my friend and I will never forget that. I miss you Marissa McLeod. Unfortunately, I’m currently still in denial about what happened. But in a way, i’m not crazy! I know you’re here, watching our student body as we achieve and work our ways to our goal. This tragedy is having a big impact on our schools, our teachers–our friends. You will be missed–never forgotten. Te amo 🙂
-Kevin Ton
Marissa…
I don’t know what to say about all of this because I will never know why all of this happened, but I do know that you were an amazing person. You had the biggest heart, I will never forget when you and Lauren and Nicole came to the hospital with flowers to visit me over the summer when I broke my back. I was so happy to see you guys! Girls league wouldn’t have been the same without you, you always came up with the best ideas. Between serving dinner at the homeless shelter to going to party city to pick out decorations for sadies to singing christmas carols to the people at bethany homes, I can honestly say that you put your whole heart into it all. Not many people can do that so I believe that you were a very unique person. I wish things didn’t have to end this way, I wish we could’ve talked more. You had big dreams and everyone knew you would go far in life once out of high school… I wish you could’ve seen that yourself though… You were a beautiful person inside and out and I know that you will never be forgotten. We will all miss you so much….
Love,
Cali
Marissa you have left us so early and I will never undrstand y what made you do this you are a good person and always made me smile! You were so beautiful and lit up any room you waked into I wish someone could have been there to stop you I wish you just would have reachd out for help! So many people love you and always wil you will never be forgotten! You’ll be loved forever! Rest in paradise
Marissa…
I watched you and my sister grow up together. I hope you know that you were a beautiful, smart, and caring girl. Whatever was hurting you so bad I hope you can now rest in peace. All your fears, horrible memories, and all you thoughts be washed away. It just makes me sad to think that you felt there was no other way out. You, Marissa McLeod were going to change the world some day. Instead you changed our lives in another way. And I hope this is a message to the rest of you kids at Ripon High.. Marissa and Dillon were two teenagers who were from different crowds but obviously both crying out for help. Every action has a reaction.. So think about that before you decide to tease someone or not take what they have to say seriously.. YOU WILL BE MISSED DEARLY MARISSA!!!
Marissa
i know we just started talking but i liked you so much
every kiss i felt something so special
i told you how amazing you weres o many times
just believe me
i hope yoou found your happiness babe
and im sorry i coldnt give it to you
you will always be in my heart marissa
i love you girl
Dear Hart,
I don’t know if you remember, it’s been many years since the stone Soup days, I’m Miss Sylvia (used to work there) I am so sorry for your loss. It’s hard to understand why a person makes these choices, But I want you to know that you did make her happy. She probably was struggling with deeper emotions than anyone could ever comprehend. I guess the reason I’m writing to you is to let you know, life isn’t easy, but it is worth living.
I don’t even really know what to say, I just wish teens could realize right now that life is much more simpler in high school, you’re going to realize that you guys have it so easy, and all that petty drama was worthless. Ask any adult if they would like to go back to high school and they would say YES! High school is supposed to be the best 4 years of your life, and it truly is!
Please if you or anyone you know are facing struggles, please realize there is always someone to talk to, ANYONE will lend an ear, shoulder or tissue.
Take care
Marissa,
I think that most have made it clear by how much your actions shocked us all. Things like this don’t happen in small towns like Ripon…let alone twice, in the same year, same semester, same graduating class. I just wish that you had realized how beautiful the gift of life is and how many people would have done anything in their powers just to have another shot at breathing. Granted, I don’t know your reasoning behind your choice, nor will anyone truly comprehend. You affect more people than you think you do, and I think that it shows now. But it should have been apparent when you needed someone the most. So to everyone who reads this, please just talk to someone. Anyone, for that matter. People care more than you know. I’ll keep you in my heart Marissa. And so will everyone in our community. Enjoy your journey to your new home. And say hello to Dillion and to Bryan for us all. We miss them. And we miss you too.
Eternal love, ********
To the McLeod Family: I’m truly sorry for your loss. Marissa was a one-of-a-kind beauty that everyone wanted to know personally. She had an incredible smile, and a fisty attitude that most will never be able to possess. Take note, though, she made an impact on everyone around her. I wish you the best.
Marissa,
I didn’t know you, but in these two days i have heard a lot of amazing things about you. I can never fully understand why a beautiful person like you would take her life, or anyone else for that matter…i hope that you and Dillion both find the peace on Heaven that you couldnt achieve on Earth, may you both rest in peace…
Marissa’ peers, friends and surrounding class. It is apparent that lifes challenges these days, are getting harder. The mountain seems higher, the river seems wider but I will tell you there is someone always thinking of you. Someone is always lifting you up without being seen. Someone is holding onto hope so that you have a brighter tommorrow. We as parents are not perfect and do not have all the answers. We can only hope, wait and watch as you enter the teen-age/young adult years that your efforts do not fade but are enhanced by the unique character in people around you. To filter out the hollowness in words and search for action. In most cases, YOU!, have to be the one to step foreward into the flowing river to allow others to see hope.
You each have been blessed with individual gifts and talents. Sometimes it takes some a little longer to grow simply because the roots must be strong enough to weather the challenges by lifes storms. SO, I would encourage you to stay the course, or simply stay focused on the beauty life has after all, lifes to short. My daughters are students at your school and pray that Ripon High is a place of Hope as you prepare for life, a place of Joy as you share in the good times, a place of Stregnth as you go through this together. May God be with you all, the family of Marissa and know that someone loves you!!
Marissa
you are truely going to be missed! you were a beautiful young girl who had soo much goinn for you!You were definitly gonna change the world! i know we didnt really hangout as much but i realy wish yu were still here with us….know one understands why things like this happen and y people chooose that wayy out but i hope that yu are in a better place and that yu are happier and resting in paradise with dillon..i miss the both of yu alot and yu guys will never be forgotton and always thought about
Marissa,
You were the most amazing person. Everyday you would come to me with a new story and a new addition to the “square of love”. I owe you so much for everytime you helped me when I felt like giving up and now I feel as though I failed you. I know you are in a better place, but that doesn’t replace the pain and the longing we all feel for you. Each day will bring us less pain, but it will never be healed. Each day we will think of you and know you are supposed to be with us. When prom comes, when the senior trip comes, and graduation. You won’t be with us in person, but your spirit will always be with us because your journey through Ripon High with us left a special impact on everyone. You touched our hearts. And when I think of Ap Bio, I’ll think of you, and how we planned to name our kids after trig functions and square them if they were twins, and when they miss behaved we’d call them by their derivative.lol(: we were nerds. And when I walk into spanish, Ill remember how you promised to be there with me to struggle through the year. And how we’d always talk in english and when senora walked by, we’d switch to spanish only to go right back to english.haha. Marissa, I miss you so much. I love you girl. You were a great friend and truly left an impact on my life I will always always cherish and remember
-love your friend caitlin
Marissa, or as i like to call you my dancing partner,
You new how to brighten someones day and always make them feel better. You did to me. You taught me to dance at core camp, hahaha, and became a great friend to me. I wish this wasnt the end. You were such a smarty and a beautiful person inside and out. Like i say, no one can work that zebra attire like you did. I’ll miss seeing you.
Rest In Paradise, Love Taylor Clarke
Hey Marissa.
I remember when i met you
it was my freshmen orientation
you were in charge of me.
Then we became friends.
I love you
and youll always be in my heart.
I lost two very dear friends to me in two months.
Your beautiful inside and out
i wish you didnt do this
I hope your happy finally
A good friend told me today
to take this a day at a time
and even though right now sucks
the next i could be happy
to focus on what im looking forward to
to focus on whats good in my life
snd not to linger on things that are so bad
because that will only hurt myself more.
They said shes ok now.
to trust them.
I hope your okay.
and ill remember the good moments
that really seem like yesterday
I LOVE YOU MArissa
Your with the angels now
Marissa… i cant stop repeating that i had noting but high hopes for your future. You always worked sooo hard to be that amazing girl that we remember. You touched everyones life in ways that you dont even know. I never met anyone that was just a nice person to all…other than you. You showed us that kindness was not hard to give no matter how hard our lives were. I thought that you would be the one to come back in 10 years and be a lawyer or be modeling somewhere enjoying life to its fullest and now we have to just wonder why? Why would you do this to all the kids that loved you so much…today i saw people cry who had never cried before. I know that there were many other that were hoping and praying for your success…Mr. Rohn was with me this morning in shock and couldnt believe you were gone. Then she read the first three words of a letter sent to all staff to read about your absence and she cried…she just cried, she loved you so much just like all of us. I know that your in a better place now, without worry and without sorrow. You are one of the few angels that walked among us at RHS for the past almost 4 years. We have to let you go and do your job, watch over everyone that is in pain and let them know your happy. Smile like you always have and we will smile with you. you are truely a great girl that is missed. Enjoy heaven marissa <3
marissa you dont know me all that well but i met last year in girls league and you were so fun and made everything not boring..i know you had a lot of things going for you and i wish you were still here to fullfill them…you are very beautiful girl and i hope you are happy in the place you are in..RIP
Marissa,
DANG! I never saw this coming. I didnt believe it at first either. But its true. You weren’t there during 7th period. I believe it now. Gosh, I miss you. I remember the first day truly met you. I say this because back in Colony Oak I just knew that you were Marissa McLeod. But in Freshman Orientation, my first day of what high school was going to be like, I met you. You were my Link Crew Leader, along with Kendra Contente. You gave me the award for showing the most spirit and you gave me the first hug. I remember like as if it were yesterday. Then, later in my freshman year, some card arrived for me in 1st period. It was from you. Later that day, I gave you a huge card and you said that you loved me. This year, I had you in one of my classes and this is where I danced with you. Then I made you name on a piece of paper like graffiti style. Then you asked me to make you a Tinkerbell in exchange for a bracelet. I have that Tinkerbell which I never finished. I just needed the last touch and I would’ve been done. Today, the day after the terrible news of your death, I found the skeleton you made on Dia de los Muertos day. It’s so beautiful. I have that in my binder too. I miss you Marissa. I love you and I miss you even more. You should have talked to someone, there could have been a solution. I have learned that one doesn’t realize what they have until they lose it. I feel like that right now. I’m so sad. To hear of your death was like a sword was stabbed at my heart. I WILL ALWAYS REMEMBER AND LOVE AND MISS YOU LOVE.
RIP Marissa McLeod 5/2/09-12/1/09 <3
Luis
Marissa- Ever since i moved to Ripon I’ve looked up to you. We weren’t very close but you were always there to talk to. Last year at the girls league christmas party after almost everyone else had left you and i sat and talked about your latest guy problems. I know hart would have taken care of you no matter what. No matter how hard things got you always seemed to keep your head up. I remember pole vaulting with you my freshman year and one day we were doing warmups and you completely ate it and the first thing you said when you got up off the ground was “damn good thing i knew how to roll out of that one or it coulda been all bad” between all the laughing we were doing. I’ll miss you dearly and even though you may not realize it you changed a lot of lives and were an angel to look up to. Keep watch over all of us here. Loved forever and never forgotten, you left so many dear friends behind. I hope you found happiness! Rachelle
Marissa,
i didnt really know you very well but you always seemed so nice, and put together at school & always had a smile on your face.i wish i had a chance to get to know you better in girls league this year. you always looked so pretty. we all miss you dearly. i hope you are at peace and happy in heaven, dancing with the angels with a smile on your face and glowing with beauty even more than you were here on earth.you will NEVER be forgotten. we love you & always will.
Rest In Peace Marissa McLeod<3
Man oh man, I actually heard of Marissa from her peers in Chiefs Cheer before I actually met her when she came to the organization. She stood out like a shining star. Everything seemed to come naturally and so easily for her. Then I found out how book smart she was and attended special schools and classes because everything took such little effort for her to achieve the best grades. It was like a total package. I knew she was going far in this world. She was going to be in bigger and better places in this world than most. Wow. I know being a teenager is sooooo difficult and unsettling. I wish you peace. Let it be helpful to the others at RHS to know you are no longer in pain.
marissa ive known you since elementry. remember. you were always so sweet and kind to me. i realy apriciated that. its unfortunate i didnt get to see you much. i also moved from ther but i remember you were always such a great person and an a great friend. YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART. REST IN PEACE MARISSA. WE WILL TRULY MISS YOU.
Marissa, we weren’t bestfriends or even good friends. But we hung out pretty often, mostly partied together lol I always enjoyed being around you you were so positive and energetic. You could always make me laugh no matter what you said or did. I would lovvvve to share some of our stories but I don’t want the parents to see.. Haha besides that you were amazing and so damn beautiful. I’ve always been so jealous of you. It seemed like you had everything going right for you..I just wish you could have handled this another way. But it’s done with and now we can’t do anything but grieve. I just keep telling myself you’re much happier now… Hopefully. and I hope you can look down on us and help your friends and family out. Be their guardian angel.. You’ll be so much missed Marissa you don’t even know. I’ll never forget you girl.. Rest in peace and I’ll see you one day, I’ll be praying for you <3
Marissa, I still haven’t come to realize nor accept the fact that you are gone. I dreamed of you last night. I dreamed of the memories I have of you and I. Playing golf at my birthday, playing poker, kissing you at Sam’s birthday party some years ago, making you CD’s, listening to KoRn together, doing but not doing A.P. History homework, and going to the Raider game where you ate a million packs of gum! You were the first crush I ever had in Ripon, and the first kiss I ever had x). In 7th grade I wrote you a love poem. But I never had the courage to give it to you. In algebra with Mrs. Beam I’d always get so nervous because you would always volunteer to take the empty seat next to me. You constantly gave me the butterflies. When I woke up this morning, I wanted to call you and tell you my wonderful dream of these memories. However, after experiencing a tiny fragment of heavenly bliss, I woke myself back to the reality. Even though in High School we didn’t see much of each other, I always felt your presence. Because you have one of those powerful, unique personalities. You have the tremendous ability to open peoples hearts and to impact lives positively. I know for a fact that being with you has positively benefited me. You pretty much taught me how to talk to girls! Now I’m not shy anymore… Well, for the most part. I’ve been rambling, you are probably getting annoyed! I am going to sleep. I love you, and I wish I could say see you tomorrow. But that is not the case. Good night, and maybe one day, my Atheistic fews will be proven wrong and I will see you in an afterlife of some sort. I love love love you Marissa 🙂
When someone we love passes away,
We ache, but we go on;
Our dear departed would want us to heal,
After they are gone.
Grief is a normal way to mend
The anguish and pain in our hearts;
We need time to remember and time to mourn,
Before the recovery starts.
Let’s draw together to recuperate,
As we go through this period of sorrow;
Let’s help each other, with tender care
To find a brighter tomorrow
Marissa..
Marissa..
So you would probably be laughing at me cause i just totally posted one of these with just your name, didnt mean to i promise. Anyways marissa i was always so fasinated by you..you are a beautiful, intelligant, great person all around. I would never say we were bestfriends but i do consinder you one of my close friends and i hope you considered me that too. We deffiantly have had some crazy night either if we were at joshes, graves, kincaid, sexton or even murphy. You are such an amazing person and i still can not believe your gone. Right now im waiting for you to walk in the door and say hey what are you doing..This is so unreal to me. It was like on Monday me you kamie and kaitlyn were all talking about this guy before school started. I just feel like i could have helped you i wish you could have came to me or anyone else at that. We could have helped you. and i feel like we didnt succeed in trying to help you cause we all thought you were okay. I love you marissa and i miss you very much! Im gonna miss are memories in the orchards you trying to do a handstand in heels and a dress. you always making fun of me cause i couldnt walk in heels at prom, and of course you could(and of course we had to have the same exact ones) ha. You were and inspiration to me i always wanted to be as smart and beautiful as you. I remember i use to always tell you that you look like mariah carey and you just tell me oh be quiet. But now that your gone all make sure to take care of Kamie and Kaitlyn, you have know left them in my hands. I love you marissa and i will see you again some day. RIP Riss<3
Marissa you are the most beautiful angel in heaven. I just found you now your gone. you know whats in my heart.much love aunt teddi.
Marissa,
I know we really didnt talk much but i knew you since 2003 when we cheered together at POWER it was such a fun time with you and you always had a smile on your face. After POWER i thought id never see you again till one year in football i saw you cheering for Ripon and i freaked out and told everyone about you and how you were an amazing cheerleader. I always looked forward to playing you guys in football and basketball you were an amazing girl so beautiful and full of life. I will miss you dearly and i know “JAMES” the cute one that u wanted me to hook u up with will miss you to! Girly i dearly miss you. You are in gods hand now and we all know you are in a better place. R.I.P. Marissa McLeod miss you and love you!!<3
Marissa even though i really dont know you that well. even though we both went to colony oak. i would just like to say we all miss you. i remember seeing you just the other day on monday.. i was walking down the hall on my way to spanish and you stoped and said hi.. you made me smile 🙂 im in girls league and i always thought you were one of the prettiest girls at ripon high. and i just want you to know that i voted for you for homecoming queen
well i hope your in a happier place. this week has been tough on all of us even some wo dont know you too well like i do. but i just wanted to say i love you and hopefully i will see you again and you will be able to make my day again just as you did on monday
you and dillan will be missed and no one will forget you two
love ya girl
Marissa,
I have no idea where to even begin! You had so much going for you! You are beautiful, smart, and extremely talented! I have no clue what made you leave us so soon, only God knows! I just hope now that all your troubles are gone! You’re an angel now!!! Here’s a song I want to dedicate to you….
Why by Rascal Flatts
You must’ve been in a place so dark you couldn’t feel the light
Reaching for you through that stormy cloud
Now here we are together in our little home town
This can’t be the way you meant to draw a crowd
Chorus:
Oh why, that’s what I keep asking
Was there anything I could’ve said or done
Oh I had no clue you were masking a troubles soul
God only knows what went wrong
And why you’d leave the stage in the middle of a song
Now in my mind i’ll keep you frozen as a 17 year old
Rounding third to score the winning run
You always played with passion no matter what the game
When you took the stage you shined just like the sun
Chorus:
Now the oak trees are swaying in the early autumn breeze
The golden sun is shining on my face
Tangled thoughts I hear the mocking bird sing
This old worl ain’t really bad a place
Oh there’s no comprehending who am I to try to judge or explain
But I do have one burning question
Who told you life wasn’t worth the fight
They were wrong
They lied
Now you’re gone and we cry
Its just not like you to walk away in the middle of a song
Your beautiful song
Your absolutely beautiful song
YOU REALLY ARE A BEAUTIFUL SONG MARISSA! You are in our hearts and will be loved and missed greatly!! Rest in peace!
Love, Britt
Marissa..
You are an amazing person and will never be forgotten. Leadership will never be the same without you, especially having that empty desk next to me where you sat. I will miss all of our great “boy” talks that we had..and wish we could have had many more. I hope that you are finally at peace, but i will never understand why you though that this had to be the answer to your pain. I love you dearly Marissa and wish that you never had to leave us like this. Our senior class will never be the same without you or dillon with us.. I love you girl and hope to one day see you agin.
Love you<3
rest your eyes sunshine. the love that you left behind is nothing in comparison to the lords love.
wow. one of these days i’ll have the sudden urge to make the most grotesque and unattractive monkey faces, look around for you, and finally realize that i can’t do that anymore. that’s when it’ll truely hit me, but i’ll try to be strong, just like you have been all your life. you have always been inspirational to me: being able to take on a bazillion ap classes, having a job, doing cheer, girls’ league, leadership, and finding the time to have fun. i know i could talk to you about any random topic and we would get so carried away with our imaginations. (heck you’re one of the few people in the world that could stand a chance against austin in a debate) although i wont be able to observe you in absolute amazement anymore, you will continue to impact me. you’re definitely one of a kind, breaking through all generalities and prejudices and i feel so fortunate and grateful to have had the chance to meet and get to know such a friendly, humourous, beautiful, and truly intelligent woman.
Marissy, We’ve seen the love that surrounded you in this world from the moment you were born. So tiny, your Gramma and Grandpa called you peanut. We all prayed you would make it, so small, you were a fighter, you proved it to everyone. You grew into such a beautiful girl, always fun to have around, I loved to watch you eat….You sure enjoyed your food, never have and probably never will see anyone that loved to eat as much as you 🙂 Gotta get that cake to go… You kept a smile on everyone’s face! We will miss you forever, that is a given. You’ve touched our lives in a way that will never be the same now that your gone. I wish we could have a do over, live every birthday, Easter, Christmas and vacation again so that we could appreciate everything in a way that we probably didn’t realize we should. From this moment on we will pledge to live our lives in a more appreciative way in your honor. Love you Gerald, Dawn and Cody…..
Marissa, Dawn is so right about us all going to miss you. I remember the birthday parties you had at your Gram and Grandad’s house in Pleasonton. You were so cute then and before we knew it you were on your way to womenhood. I know you were a teenager but I felt just by seeing you now and then you were so much older then that. I remember to your Grandad saying he was going to fight off the boys or I should say they would have to answer to him when you were older. I know he was talking about Cheyenne and Cody at the time. Now you are on another journey. One we all will take one day. I am sure your paving the way for the ones who will join you one day. I understand when we cry to muchhhh we are creating a river by doing this it will be hard for you to cross, and I do want your journey with the creator to be a blessed one. I know it will be. Just by knowing you. I and my family will miss seeing you at your Gram and Granddad’s home. We will always remember how sweet and beautiful you were and am sure you still are. Your Spirit will sore for ever. See you One Day. Lots of hugs for you
Hey Marissa, I know that we lived so very far away from each other while growing up. But I do remember that one very special summer where I got to go to Cali and spend it with you(you were little at the time) and my aunt flora. But I had a lot of fun playing with you bc seeing as I never had a sister, that summer it was like I did. I still have your christmas picture, when you were in a gift box and you still had that beautiful cherry mole!! As the years went on, I was constantly hearing all the wonderful things you were doing and where you were going in ur life. I’ve never been so proud of someone and I know how much you made our family proud. Both the ones in Texas and the ones you had close to you. You made your grandmother so happy and proud to have a granddaughter like you. And i’m glad that she and the rest of them were able to have you bless their lives. I do hope that you are at peace and wish that I could’ve been there to help you.
To Bobby, Aunt flora, uncle Bob, Scotty, melinda and the rest of you guys, I love you all very much, I am so sorry for your loss, I will keep you all in my prayers. And I know that the pain will never go away, but as the days go by, it may become a little easier. And never forget the wonderful gift marissa was to you all and it was a blessing to have and enjoy her. Take care.
this is a song that my brother put together for our lost ones. the question is why??? just in case you never knew i got to let you know theres not a day goes by that i sit and wonder why as i look into the sky and ask god why, i can’t help but cry as i get no response. then it hits me like a train and now im feeling the pain to know that your gone, but your memory lives on that’s why i’m writting this song, im trying to be strong and trying to hold on. i feel im losing the battle to this war called life, im begging you god to end all this pain, take me out of the rain and end all this pain. i got to let you know just in case you never knew what you meant to us words could never explain god took you away and left us with the pain, then everything changed. I hope one of these days that i will be by your side. everyday we wake up i picture your face and your permanent place, i know god keeps you safe and your shinning in heaven.
Marissa, you were everyones world, your dad, my aunt flora(grandma), uncle bob (grandpa) i’ll never forget the day i held you when you were just a baby and aunt flora showed you off like a trophy she had won the love in our eyes for you were unexplained but i just want you to know that you are very loved from all of your family here in TEXAS and i hope that you are in a better place now. WE LOVE YOU MARISSA
LOVE ALWAYS,
YOUR COUSINS SHAVONNE, JOSH, AND FITTI
sissy,
why did you leave me? how do you expect me to do it without you..your my best friend and my sister, even though we are juss step sisters we had a closer bond than juss that. we grew up together. every moment we spent together was the greatest. i miss you sissy, words can not explain how i feel inside. im lost without you. who will i talk to now..how am i supposed to sleep without you in our room. i hope your in a better place and that your happy now and all that pain you had is gone. i know you will still be by my side everyday, i wont ever let you fade away. I LOVE YOU MARISSA!
R.I.P. SISSY
Marissa I will miss you and you were a lovely person in side and out. I wish I could have spend more time with you to get to know you better. But I know I will get to see you in heaven. I LOVE MARISSA! R.I.P LOVE YOUR AUNT EMMA CORDAWAY
To the family of Marissa our prayers go out to you. So sorry if you need anything let us know. God Bless You in the time of needs.
Ernie Camarena
To the family of Marissa, you are all in my prayers.
Wow, the words being expressed on this page are more soothing than I can explain. It is one thing, as a parent, to know that your child is amazing beyond-belief in so many ways; it is another to hear that so many others saw the same thing. During the candlelight there was a story told that her dad and I especially liked; it was about how Marissa was so smart and involved in everything but not a “dork”. He and I had wondered about that for years, and had many similar conversations about it, so thank you for sharing. (Sorry but I’m not sure who it was.)
Marissa, honey, I hope there comes a time when I can share here, like the others, the love and memories I have for you. There will forever be a part of us missing. Every hour, every day, every year that we make it through, your place will be here. I wish you could have stayed to fill it, babe.
Loving you forever,
“your fake step-mommy” –yes, I know you thought that was hilarious
Marissa’s obituary will be published Sat. and Sun. in the Modesto Bee and next Wed. in the Ripon Record.
Marissa, Ever since you were little I have heard about you and “seen” you grow up through the eyes and the joy of those that love you. From stories about how your Dad painted your room, to your dance competitions and your plans for college and beyond. You brought so much happiness to your family and we were all so proud of you and everything that you accomplished.
When you came up to Reno for Hot August Nights that was the first time I met you since you were a toddler. I always knew you were special by how your great grandma and grandparents lit up when they talked about you (not to mention the fact that Uncle Bob actually stayed up late enough to take you out cruising – a first!), but I was still amazed at what a sweet, beautiful person you were inside and out.
I’m so sorry that you are no longer with us on this earth. May the joy and love you created on this earth shine upon us until we meet you again in heaven.
Love, your cousin Laura
Marissa,
You left us far too soon.
I don’t have any stories about you because I never made the time to visit. I always told myself I can visit next year, but sometimes, there is no next year.
I promise to start making the time for visits.
May God watch over your family and friends, and give them the strength and healing they need.
Love, your cousin Doug
Marissa,
I only met you once, such a beautiful baby! But I heard a lot of great things about you from your great grandmother Martha, and had recently heard more about you from your grandparents – your grandfather had to show us all some of your recent pictures! You were indeed loved by your family and friends – it is so sad to hear that you are gone.
May God be with your Family and friends; They are all in our thoughts and prayers,
Love, Your cousin Steven and family
If we could bring you back, For one more hour or day, We’d express all our unspoken love, We’d have countless things to say. If we could bring you back, We’d say we treasured you, And that your presence in our lives Meant more than we ever knew. If we could bring you back, To tell you what we should, You’d know how much we miss you now, And if we could, we would.
you never know what you go till its gone..
Oh Marissa, I don’t even know where to begin. I’m sitting here in tears with so many emotions from sadness, to happiness and anger (not towards you). I have so much I want to say so many feelings running through my body and mind right now. But no words could even begin to express the impact you had on people. I could do no justice in anything I write, I feel like I could write a book right now and even that would only be a start. You are a shinning star, and you could light up a room with your smile. I will NEVER forget the first time I met and saw you at Applebee’s. Over these past eight months we shared many laughs and we were always teasing each other.
I was fortunate to be bale to talk to Marissa a lot and see her a few times over the last week of her life. I have replayed every conversation, every text, myspace message and every minute we were together in my head to see if I could have seen anything that may have given us a clue you were hurting inside. Friday when you got off of work then came over we watched a movie then talked for hours after. We talked about your school, family, friends, college, religion and a bunch of other silly little things. You were so bubbly and excited for the future it has left me confused and dazed to what could have made you so hurt. You asked me questions and I asked them back, we teased each other and talked so genuine about the future. Things you were excited for and things you wanted to accomplish and do. It was always so hard to really think you were only seventeen, half the conversations we had you used words I didn’t even know existed! And when we would talk about politics or “serious” matters of the world you were always so educated and prepared never without a response. I can’t help but think Monday when you text me before work, and usually I come in and see you on Monday nights, but I didn’t make it in this last Monday. I can’t help but think you were reaching out to me, only for me to let you down. Not a day goes by in this short time since I heard the news, have I wished a thousand things had gone different. But God truly has a plan, and a purpose for all things. And I know in times like this it’s hard to realize or we just don’t want to hear that we just want things back the way they were. Slowly and in time it will be revealed the good that comes out of this. Marissa always cared for the well being of others, if by this even one persons life is changed for the good, then Marissa left us the way we remembered her helping other people.
I didn’t really know anyone else involved in Marissa’s life before this week. Through the circumstances I have been fortunate to meet a few of her best friends (Kaitlyn and Tara) and family members (Krysta and Crystal). To them and the rest of the family members and friends I would like to say I couldn’t even pretend to begin to understand the emotions and feelings you all are going through. Selfishly I am hurting also, but to even pretend the eight or so months I knew Marissa compared to the life long journey you all had and shared with her would be foolish of me. I encourage all the friends and family to lean on your religion, your family and friends. Sadly it takes things like this to put things back in perspective sometimes but that’s all we can take with us when our time on earth is done. Take joy and find comfort in knowing the impact your daughter, granddaughter, sister, cousin, niece and friend had on other people. We live in society where it’s usually a me first attitude, but here is a case of a girl who was not that way. Take pride in the fact of how she was, because each of you who knew her contributed to the beautiful person she was inside and out.
We only get one chance on this earth to make a difference and how we want to be remembered. Marissa showed us you could be smart, beautiful, genuine, caring among a bunch of other things and still positively impact other people’s lives. Don’t be a victim of regret and remorse. Do everything you do with a purpose and passion. Reach out and help people you know or don’t know, take the time to talk to someone, or encourage them. We never really know what’s going on with someone or how they are really feeling inside. And by doing that you could change someone’s life, or help prevent a situation like this. All of us who could say we knew or were impacted by Marissa have a tough road ahead of us. We all have so many emotions and feelings, but understand that this is normal and it’s ok to grieve. The Bible says in Ecclesiastes 3:4 there’s a time to weep and a time to laugh; A time to mourn and a time to dance. Everyone this is our time to mourn and grieve, then after that we have a responsibility to Marissa to carry on her name and not let her life simply fade away and be forgotten. This will be our chance to let people hear about this one in a kind woman who so greatly impacted everyone around her.
Lastly I challenge every single friend of the family to continue to support and comfort the family. Sadly in my short twenty-four years of my life I have experienced losing a lot of love ones. My mom said something that has stuck with me since high school, “Life will continue to go on, and there is no way around that. Each day we live is another day that past. We have responsibilities, family, friends, work, bills and all other things that life brings our way. The band must continue marching on we have no choice. It’s easy for the first little while to comfort everyone while everyone is in a state of shock and sadness, but as you slowly get back to living your life, it’s easy to forget that everyday a family member has to deal with a reality that, that special someone is no longer physically present with with them.” So please as you start your healing process and gradually try to get back to living your “normal” life, continue to reach out and support Marissa’s family as this will be a constant process the rest of our and their lives.
R.I.P. and God Bless you Marissa, keep smiling for us because this world so badly needs it! =)
to our beloved cousin and niece we love you and you will be miss but not forgotten my you rest in peace
I love you baby. I hope your resting in peace and watching over me…i don’t want you to miss to much 😉 you will never be forgotten, and i truly hope that all your pain is gone. i love you bestie.
Marissa,
I didn’t know you, but my heart is aching for you and your family. You seem to have made an impact on many people in your short life and it’s easy to see you would have impacted the lives of so many others. You not only were a beautiful girl, but also had the potential to really make a difference. I’m sad to think that you felt there was no other way to make it through your struggles. For a brief moment you let those pains take over. I will be praying for your family and fellow classmates that will truly be missing you for a long time, if not forever. Rest in peace.
I felt sick after hearing the news from Marissa’s aunt in Colorado. Marissa was such a beautiful girl, she was sooo nice to me at Harvard- I wish she could have talked to someone.
My heart goes out to her family and her close friends- may Marissa Rest in Peace.
Marissa you were so young and talented i only wish we could help you. noone really knew what you were going threw and its a sham that we couldnt help you. cheer will never be the same without you . you always brought a smile to everyones face and you always looked like you didnt want to learn the dances but when it came down to it you rocked every part , you had so much going for you and im sorry that i’ll never be able to see your acomplish your dreams , your such an amazing girl and i cant tell you hoe much i looked up to you i only hope i can make you proud. i love you babe and i hope you found what you were looking for ,
always and forever in my heart
Marissa even though I was not your aunt by blood you are still my niece. Every time I would see you, you would always greet me with a warm smile and a hug. Even though I got to see you at family get together’s I was always amazed when I seen you out and about in Ripon. I remember one time I went to pay our dog tags and there you were volunteering behind the counter. Another time I was driving down Main Street and there you were at the Chamber accepting formal dresses to be provided for people who could not afford one. It also seemed when I would go to the office at Ripon High there would always be something on the bulletin board that you were involved in. As parents we watch over our children and now that you are a beautiful angel you will be watching over us. We miss you and love you. You will always be in our hearts. Rest in Peace……….
Love Mike, Tammy, and Ryan.
Marissa,
You didn’t know me, but you worked with my sister Veronica at Applebees. It is always very sad, and painful when anyone is taken away from us on this earth, especially when that someone was so young and beautiful, as you were with their future just barely beginning. My prayers, thoughts, and sympathy go out to you, and your family, friends, and loved ones.
Rest in Peace, Marissa.
Little Marissa,
That is my memories of you, when you were such a little girl. Grandma and Grandpa carried you around everywhere and loved you so. You loved to play with all of your toys on the patio at your grandparents. I am only sorry that our lives grew apart and I didn’t stay close to you, so I would know the young lady you became. In reading all the wonderful blogs that your friends and close family wrote you must have been one amazing young lady. Your grandpa showed me pictures just a month ago of you, he was so proud. My deepest sympathy and love to Bob & Flora, Bobby & Amanda, Scott, Melinda and her family. I cannot do anything to ease the pain but give you a hug and hold you close to my heart.
Love Aunt Liz, Uncle Steve, Denise & Debbie
marissa,
I will always remember your beautiful smlie at our family gatherings, Im still in so much shock, i just cant believe your really gone, i sit and wonder why! You will be missed dearly by more people than you could ever imagine. I love you always.
Marissa,
I know I didn’t really know you, but I wish I had a chance. Ever seince I met you on my first day of cheer practice I have always looked up to you. I will always remember your beautiful face and smile. I love you!
R.I.P Marissa
Love,
Graelyn Pope
Marissa, “Mira me a mi, No mires a ella. El senor es muy especial. Con una sonrisa en su cara. Es lo que me a decho a mi corazon. Para Siempre Tu Gran Tia. JoAnn Champion Adios Ermosa Angel. Marissa, Look at me don’t look at her. The Lord is so great, He took a very special angel, With a smile upon her face, Is what she left in my heart. Go with God sweet child, You will always be in my heart forever,Good-bye sweet Angel. Your great Aunt JoAnn Champion. Our Prayers are with you. God bless Bob, Flora, Bobby, Scott, Melinda Loving you always.
Dear sweet Marissa, Your passing has saddend us all I didn’t have a bond with you but your smile in your pictures and what we have heard of you, made it seem like we did. You are with God now, and may you rest in heaven. I know you had a loving heart and were very giving to others that were less fortunate than you, God keep you sweet angel, For in my heart that’s what you will always be to me. God Bless you, Your Great Uncle, Julio Cordaway.
Marissa-
I just wanted to say thanks for being someone that I can look up to. You are so beautiful inside and out. This still doesn’t seem real. Cheer won’t be the same without your smile and your crazy stories. I’m sad to see your life end this way…but I know you’re in a better place. Thanks again for always being so nice to me and making me feel important. I love you Marissa and I will truely miss you.
I did not know you but as a mother of a young person of about your age, my heart breaks for you and your parents. May you rest in peace beautiful girl and may God grant you the serenity that eluded you in this life. PLEASE…. anyone reading this, feeling the same way, remember those you leave behind. They are forever wounded and some never recover. I pray for Marissa’s parents and those who loved her, may God grant them the strength to go on. RIP Marissa.
john 3:16 For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. you will be missed untill we meet agian
marissa.. wow honestly I don’t know where to start. I was at practice wen I gt the call & I was in complete shock. when I got home you were the only thing I could think about; what you were feeling at that time, why you did it… I knw we weren’t the BEST of friends, bt u were & always will be my team mate & my friend. we made history together (1st starstruck sr. hip hop team to win vegas nationals baby!) I will forever remember u as the happy girl I would bug at practice 🙂
rest in peace marissa, love & miss you girl!
I am a old friend from Pleasanton and i just found out the news. Please tell me how she killed herself, i just can”t believe it…
My Sweet Marissa, I’m days too late and hours too late,for now I sit here with so many things running through my head,so many unanswered questions as for Why?Why?Why?I didn’t know you much cause I didn’t take the time.Not your fault but mine.I knew you for a bit and the person I saw in you was fun loving and so full of spirit.Your Grandma Floria did make the time to let us know how proud she was of you and how much she loved you,for that I loved you ,cause you filled my sisters heart with joy.I know you can hear me my Sweet Marissa,Your Grandma Floria said to me once when she’d speak of you “look at me just bragging”But thats not bragging thats love and being proud of you.Just being a proud Grandma thats what Grandmas do best and you know what makes Great Grandms? Children like you…All the stories I heard of you amazed me and once again you make me proud too know your our Guardian Angle.my heart & prayers goes out to those you left behind but our comfort is that one day we will reunite. R.I.P.
Your great Aunt,Emma
marissa,
why i have so much to tell u, how much pain were you goiing though to do this.? just know that i have always been here for you. i hope that all your pain is gone. watch over us plz. i ask that of you. writting on your casket was probably one of the hardest things i have ever had to do. it sucked. im going to miss standing next to you not cheering and talking about you know. only me and you knoe. haha i love watching you do your lil jumps for your boy. haha and always yelling at the boys because the sucked at the play they just did. i love you girl always in my heart. always missing you. come visit me someday in my dreams. i love you and forever.
-norma
Marissa,
You were my best friend in 7th grade. We did a lot together. We even got our pictures taken at the mall. I always looked up to you. It’s so sad that you’re gone, it feels like you’re on a vacation and you’ll be back in no time. I remember Sophomore year we had Creative Writing together. You would always tell me your crazy stories about the weekends and just anything random. When I saw you at school at all this year, you would smile at me and say “Hey Kels”. The last real conversation we had the first day of senior year. You just started talking to me in the library and we discussed classes. I always thought you were something else because you took the most ridiculous classes even if you didn’t want to. Even though we weren’t close in the end, I still miss you. You impacted my life so much. I hope you are at peace. I miss you and you will always be in my heart. Rest in peace, Marissa.
Marissa,
You were such an inspiration to so many people. I looked up to you and aspired to be as successful as i knew you would be. I loved coming to practice and hearing about your busy bee schedule and seeing you dart out of starstruck’s doors to your next practice or game. Or even watching you study on APanatomy flashcards, or thumbing through your insanely dense Calculus book.
You were probably one of the most beautiful people I’ve ever met inside and out. You had a caring heart and were always willing to help me out when I had trouble with our ‘freaky’ routine. Performing with you was amazing and you had such an incredible talent to put on a show for the crowd. I can’t believe I’ll never have the oppurtunity to do so again.. Your service today was beautiful and it left a lifelasting impression on me. I love you dearly and my family and I send our best to yours. I hope you are at peace now and I hope you are watching over all of your caring friends and family.
we miss your beautiful smile already babygirl…
marissa,
i dont know where to start…it seems like it was juss the other day me you and krysta were at church and youu came up with this brilliant idea to get up and leave in the middle of the service to go on an “adventure”… i didnt really wantt to go but im glad i did i had thee funnest time skipping down the street wiith youu leavingg krysta at that empty apartment complex and watchingg youu flirt withh those little boyss so youu could get them to sell you their scooter for a dollar haha…words cant express how muchh i wishh i couldd relive that dayy…im goingg to miss youu and your beautiful face SOO MUCH butt i knoww thatt yourr better now and whatever youu were goingg throughh doesnt matter anymore because yourr free of pain(:…i never told youu that i looked up too you soo muchh youu were everything i wanted be! I love youu Scooterr Whoree<3
lovee tiffyy
p.s. i'll hold it down at yourr daddys housee for youu(:
I didn’t ever get to know you… but i did go to the same high school as you… and its heart breaking that someone i went to the same school as… is lost… I may not be known to you… but i have seen you around. And going by all the messages on here alone… i know that you will be more then missed by many… One thing is for sure… even though you will truly be missed down here… you are in a better place… A place we will all be meeting again sometime in all of our futures. R.I.P.
Hi it’s me again. I feel I have left so much out in trying to say how I feel about you and your loving family. I have this picture of you running in and out trying to do everything in your planner. I can see you running in your Grandma and Grandad’s house or driving up the drive way and your Grandparents excited to see you. It seems your planner was quiet full. Maybe your planner is just as full on your journey with our creator. I know you will at your time come back in a dream,a aroma in a sense that the one you are visting knows it’s you. Your a very special spirit here and on your journey. I pray for the comfort you can give and the comfort you will get. You deserve nothing less,and I know you will get nothing less.As in your life form. We saw how much Love you gave while you were here for such a short time. They say we are here to learn our life lessons. I believe you have done above and beyond what was expected of you. I pray you know this. Reading your stories told by your friends and family proves how the Love you shared was one on one.
i love you girlie and im thinking about you soo muchh.
marissa…
i need you here.thats it for now.
i love you always and forever.
Marissa-
I have been trying for a week now to come here and post something. What can I say. I knew you and played with you when you were itty bitty. My dad (your uncle) and your papa (my uncle)and the rest of our families would spend every weekend together up until the time you were about four. And then we all lost touch and I never got to see you grow up into this amazing woman. I am sorry I missed watching you grow up, getting to know one another and being together as family. On Sunday during the viewing there were lots of pictures of you growing up and I felt I at least got to see you grow up in pictures. I know you already know how amazing you were and how much you meant to your grandpa and grandma Flora and your mom and dad. I hope you have found the peace and serenity that you yearned for. I will never forget you and will always remember you as forever young and forever loved by so many.
Love always,
Your cousin Denise
marissa i fill so misscaboobarated.
To read all of this as a parent breaks my heart…Please remember that there is always somone who will listen to you…find help, the pain of these actions is tremendous. You are all loved, and life is to be cherished, please let those around you know how much you love them, and always understand that there is someone to help you through the times when you feel like you can’t make it alone. Don’t be afraid to ask for help. This world lost someone amazing.
I was so shocked when i found out about this tragedy…. I was at a city council meeting and Kaitlin called me, at first i was speechless then once it hit me i coulnd’t stop crying. You were such a beautiful person inside and out, i’ll always remember our fun times in spanish with senora for two years in a row… You were the best spanish partner ever and you always made me laugh, especially the time when we had to do our commercial for a product to sell and you wanted it to be lip gloss because you said ” you had such big lips” lol I think you called it Labios sedosos which means silky lips in spanish… Good times!!! I love you girly you will forever be in my heart, my thoughts and prayers go out to your family.. <3 u alwayz Tiana
Marissa,
What can I say, you will be missed. The times I saw you, you where always so happy and beautiful (just like your mother) I will forever remember. As I will forever keep you and your family in my thoughts. We love you very much Marissa. May god bless you!
The task I set before myself
is one that can’t be done.
To try and describe in words
someone that for words there are none.
I think back on the times with you,
the good, the “bad”, and the misunderstood.
I would not take a second back,
I swear– not even if I could.
The “bad” times were never bad,
just a different part of you I think.
I love you just the way you were,
always on the edge, teetering right on the brink.
The goods times brought such highs,
such feelings of fullness and love.
I wish I would have known then,
this fucked up plan from above.
For if I had known this,
I promise on everything I have today,
I’d scoop you up and hold you, look you in the eye and plea,
“Marissa, please believe me, this will all turn out okay.”
I’m so sorry I didn’t see babe,
how truly bad things were inside for you.
My lack of understanding,
has left you gone and us in agony now too.
So now we sit and think of you,
read stories on your blog.
Memories from countless others,
help to clear this heart-wrenching fog.
They seem to shout: amazing, inspiring,
beautiful, giving and perfect in everyway.
Well, this your family has always known,
but it feels so different to hear others say.
I find comfort that it seems everyone already knows,
since this task I set before myself is one that cannot be done.
I can’t explain you in words, Ris,
because, without a doubt, for you, words there are none.
we miss you
Marissa,
I know you didnt really know me but I went to Colony Oak with you and I also went on the NY&DC trip with you and we where in the same room with 2 other girls. when I heard about what happened I couldnt belive it was true till the next day when not a lot of people when gone from school. Even though we didnt know each other I still have one memerie of you that will stay with me the rest of my life and it was that one night you where really hyper in the midel of the night and we where all bored so you just said “Hey lets have a pillow fight” so just 4 girls had I think a good hour of a pillow fight. That will always be with me for the rest of my life.
I love you as a friend i wish i knew and i will always miss seeing you at school but you will always be in my heart.
I was planning on killing myself the same day that you did.
I didn’t, obviously.
I don’t know what to say. You were perfect in every way, and everyone knew it. I hope you are in a happier place.
Whoever wrote that last blog about killing yourself:
I can only hope that you aren’t feeling like that anymore, I’ve been struggling for days to put something into words to write here-to thank everyone for their warm thoughts regarding my daughter but I haven’t been able to. But what I can say is that I know and I’ve seen that my daughter has touched many lives in the time that she was here and I can only hope in her passing that she can reach out someway and touch you and give you strength to get through whatever it is you are going through and to stay here with those that love and care about you. Please talk to somebody, please. If you feel like you don’t have anyone that you can reach out to, feel free to call me–and I’ll tell you right now, just like I always told Marissa, we can work through anything. I wish she would have reached out and I hope that you do. Robert 209-380-5035.
or if you are more comfortable talking to a female, please feel free to call me, Amanda 209-556-7679. There are so many other options besides killing yourself, even if it seems like there isn’t. It is so important that you talk to someone that can help point out things that you may be blinded to because of your pain.
Bob~
My heart ached when I heard the news..We are so sorry for your loss..from reading this blog your daughter touch many people in different ways..We haven’t seen each other in years but please know that your in our thoughts and prayers.
Bob, Ida (Tateo) and Family
The May Family
its been 12 days..it still doesnt seem real sissy. i wish you could be here right now, i need you so bad. need to talk to you about everything..i feel like im in a dream. guess what though? your funeral was in the church that you me tommy and tyler went too 🙂 with that abandoned bus in the back, oh those were the days. that was about the only thing that made us smile these past few days. i wish i didnt have to go on without you. i wish you ould see how much everyone misses you. i want you here with me. this is the biggest change of my life..i love you and i miss you, life will never be the same. 🙁
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Marissa, even though we only saw you a handful of times throughout the year, you were an important part of our family. We will always remember your bubbly personality and big smile. Reading all the wonderful things about you only confirms how special you were……and loved.
Hey everyone,
There has been a group of people who have been going to Ripon High School every day since Marissa’s passing to pray at 6:30 am to 7:30 am. Due to a lot of guidelines and protocols those are the only hours we are allowed to be on the campus. But we DO have permission to be there during those hours. This IS NOT a Ripon High function, we are doing this on our own. This Wednesday we ARE assembling a group of people no matter if they are in junior high, high school, college or even an adult. We are going to meet this Wednesday December 16th, 2009 from 6:30 am to 7:30 am in the front of Ripon High, and just pray for everyone and everything associated with Ripon High. The family, friends, school and faculty all need our prayer and they need our support. I know it’s early in the morning, but I am just asking that you share this with everyone, try and get as many students, parents or staff to attend, and show people we truly are different and God has a plan in this troubling time. Our community, fellow schools, and our youth need us right now more than ever. I hope you can be there and share this with me and the rest of our surrounding communities. Any questions please just reply to this!Thanks in advance and hope to see you all there!!
Greg
I have been in your life since the day you were born. You were always so cute. You came and spent the night with Tara and Christal and when you left you had written me a note and hid it in a box on my coffee table. A month later I found it and it said “Yaya, thanks for letting me sleep over. I had fun”. When I told you I found the note, you could not stop laughing and said you had been waiting for me to find it. A whole month is a long time for a 5 year old to wait! You are my great-granddaughter, I never use the word step. I watched you on stage, when you were going thru the dance period. You always looked so cute in all those fancy dresses. I can still hear myself yelling and clapping til my hands turned red. You gave me some special moments. I will never forget you. Melinda and Bob, no matter what, it takes two to bring up such a wonderful girl. One that was truly loved by all that knew her. My sorrow goes out to both of you and to the rest of the family that all loved her. She will always be in our hearts.
Marissa I finally have the streangth to say a few words I love u and we were so close there r too many memories to say….I miss u so much it’s scares me so much to know I will never see u again 🙁 There is so much going on right now and I wish u were here to help me through them u were te one who alwys saved me from myself but ur gone and it’s so sad like I can’t even imagine words to explain the depression right now…I feel like no on truly knew the real u baby girl cuz no one was ever allowed in but I still till this day feel like u were a sister to me well u and me know the memories we share and allll the talks ok well there is so much more to say just not enough words to say them with it all sums up to I love u an will never forget u ever
i love you 🙁
miss u forever…
Marissa..
There are about a thousand questions running through my mind. The one that first comes to mind is why? I cannot fully understand the reason why you left us in this way.. I know you had problems that you told me about, but I had no idea it was this bad. I wish there was something I could have said or done that could have changed the path you have decided to take. I feel selfish for saying that I want you back here, but your solution was not the answer to your problems. I just wish you would have told me more.. I talked to my teachers and my Government teacher Mr. Kirk told me that a way to make myself feel better was to write a letter to you…even though you will not get it, it will help calm me and let me ask any questions I may have. People say that you are happier now and in a better place. As long as that is the truth, I will learn to accept the fact that you are really gone. I still find myself crying every night trying to understand. Work is not the same without your joyful presence or beautiful smile. Standing at the host stand where you once stood breaks me down, and gives me the chills. I cannot bear to stand there without you, knowing that you will never stand there again.. It’s so unreal to me, because just two days before you passed away, we were standing talking to each other, playing crypto in the newspaper. :’)
Marissa, I know you are no longer with us, but to me you will always be here with me. I know you are watching over all of us. Make sure to watch over Christal, as well as the rest of your family. They are hurting, but are being strong and making it through. Everyone at Applebee’s’ misses you very much. Your funeral is today, I will be there for you. It will hurt, but I want to see you. I love you very much and will see you soon. Until then, watch over us. You will forever be in my thoughts and prayers. Rest in peace. <3
Love always and forever, Cassie.
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the above paragraph was written on the day of her funeral.
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Marissa.well it still seems weird that your gone. Everyday since you have left us i walk into spanish and still see that empty desk behind me where you should be. I always think its just like normal when you would be gone for a few days, then come back. but thats not how it is anymore. the day i heard about what happened i didnt know what to say at all. i thought it was fake. but it was real. i still remember laughing at you at the football game with matt. you dancing with your ipod and spitting your sunflower seeds out onto the bleachers (: you told us we were you least favorite couple. and i found that very funny. but monday before you left us i remember you were in class wearing a skirt and jeans. and matt laughed at you and you made up some weird thing about how if it was hot you could take off your pants and if it was cold you could leave them on.i laughed at you and you just smiled. you seemed so happy that day ): but just the other day i went to get my binder off the counter in class and i moved one out of the way to get mine and it was yours…i wondered what to do with it. so i just left it there and it made me sad to think you were really gone. then i started thinking about when i first met you. in 8th grade you were at weston for a volleyball game and i talked to you in the bathroom. you were telling me how you just got your belly button pierced for having straight A’s. i thought that was the coolest thing ever too. every time i saw you, you were so happy and just…Marissa. lots of us miss you. i hope where ever you are that you are happy now.
love Jesika
marissa…..idk were to start or even to begin…everytime i think of you tears warm my eyes and i become speechless….we have known each other since before we could speak….i cant believer you are gone i miss you and love you beyond words…everytime i think of you i think of hot august nights with me you cody and nikki and my mom grandma your grandma and grandpa and everyone with us….or i think of going to your birthday partys when we were little….i think of how much we grew apart as we got older i thought bout you alot lately to before this indcident….but i still will always remember how close we were wen we were little….I LOVE YOU SOOO MUCH….More than you could ever imagine….i love you from your cousin cheyenne (aka bubbba)
i am so sorry for your lost.
i am so lost without you. i have the largest void in my life, i wish it was just a dream….i love you bestfrienddd.
Hey girl. Todays been a rough one for me and i want you too know i love you and miss you very much. Everyday feels so blank with out you being here. I want you also to know that i will love you always and forever. I cant wait to see your smile again someday. All i do is stare at your beautiful face when i feel lost and i always remember the times you would make me smile and do stupid stuff with me.
I love you marissa, i wish you could be here with me and everyone else.
Heyy riss well today was one of the first days that i have actually cried since the week that this all happened. i just want you to know that i am always thinking aboutyou. i got a bracelet today that says hope on it and i can only hope that you are in a much better place now and looking over all of us.. hopefully you realize what you are missing out on too. i cant believe that it is going to be a month in a couple of days. it has gone by pretty fast. but i wish i could just rewind to that last day we had together. i hope your enjoying christmas up there love. watch over all your family and us girlieess. cant wait till the day i get to see you again love.
Love you riss.
your bestie.
I know today is a blessed day for the Birthday of Jesus. I know Marissa is celebrating while she is on her journey. We are the ones who are at a loss. I can’t express enough the sadness I feel for Marissa’s family and her friends. I want to call and ask you Bobby and Scott how you are but that wouldn’t be the question to ask. I wanted to let you both now how much you both mean to me and to my family. Ever since you were lil guys you have been special. I know you both are grown and have your own lives but at the same time I know how much pain there is in your lives. I can’t say I know what your feeling because every pain we feel is diffrent then the next persons. I have had a few losses in my life sister and brother who should still be here but are not. They are on there journey as well. I miss them still. Today was a teary one for me. I can’t imagin your feeling. Today of all days. This coming year is going to be tough alot of firsts as you already know. Saying that you can bring up alot of good times you shared like on Marissa’s Birthday,Easter,Summertime,the list goes on. Keep in your heart the good memories. I remember last year at this time we were with your family laughing and sharing wonderful memories. I will cherish them forever. I was told and wanted to remind you both there isn’t a right or wrong way to greive. I learned this when I lost my Dad,Sister,and Brother. My counsler reminded me of this. It hurts and words help but it’s your pain and your feelings that you have to deal with,in your time. Just remember we are here if ever you need to talk or cry. I love you both. Dee
Marissa, i miss you. Merry christmas. love youuu
its unbelievable and mind boggling how much you’ve changed my life. I think about you everyday. It seems to me, that everything I do, reminds me of you….we’ve done it all together. I can put a memory of us to everything in my daily routine. i wish i could tell you how much i miss you & truly cherish you….i have a never ending hurt for the absence of yourself. you were one of my truest best friends, & i’m a mess without you.
I hope one day I will regain happiness without you. It just takes time i’m told…I believe that its only getting worse as time goes on…reality has sunken in, and I don’t really know how to deal with it.
Please watch over me & help mend my broken heart.
I love you Marissa.
Marissa
It’s a really strange feeling when you leave home and when you comeback and then everythings changed. During training I thought that everything in Ripon would just freeze until I came back. I still remember you bailing me out of Pre Cal, drawing randomass animals all over our homework, and Mrs Rohtob getting mad at us for talking.
I didn’t really get to know you that well and i really regret that. You taught me how to live for the now, and to be less of a jackass. My memories of you will come with me to Afganistan. Thank you Marissa for shareing a small part of your life with me 🙂 it was a blessing.
I no I just wrote something the other day but cant help but feel there are to many things i left out…….Its been said many times and many ways marissa but we still all miss you….I have changed a lot…..me and you grew up from to different worlds…..everything has always been within reach for you….you have always made everything you do look easy….I cant say I hated it because I love you…I just wish I had some of the opportunitys you did growing up…having a father like uncle bobby would have made my life a lot easyer….my mom has alawys been there but not as much as i would have liked….everythings been a fight for the both of us….yours is just recogognized now and for the wrong reasons….you should be with us marissa….x-mas has come and gone and on that day i woke up and put my head back in my pillow and did my best to hold back tearz….i thought of you all day…i thought why does today feel not so speacial….now i no we only shared x-mas eve together but that was what helped make x-mas more comfrotable to me…..was seeing a side of my family that was happy that had there own struggles and problems….but always made it a point to get over it threw the holidays or at least whenever they got around each other…..I have been going out to modesto lately to go party….and whoever I was with going I would always brag to them that you were my cousin….I didnt give a f*** if they knew you or not i just wanted them to no that i had one of the most smart and talented persons I could ever meet or have met in my family…….Man the day I got the phone call about what happend I went in to shock and couldnt believe it…….I still cant believe it my broken heart wont let me….. I remember i was going to my current ex gf’s house to go drop off some movies and a cd and….I seen a wierd look on my granmothers face as she called me in to her room before i could leave…..and I guess dawn had called her and told her whatever she knew about the situation…..and my heart started beating once she told me the news…..my face droped and tearz came out so rappidly i didnt no what to do but tell me my mom…..ever since then marissa you have been on my mind so frequently and all I can do is hope you and that beautiful smile of yours made it threw those gates of heaven….and that on the days me and others miss you most you smile upon us and help us threw those rainy situations
ooo yea i love you marissa;)
one last thing i swear……I love you and will always be here for you uncle bobby….uncle bob ant flora….and of course scotty….and krysta
hey sis..
so christmas has past, it was a hard one without you and im more than glad its over now. my days have been harder lately, i wish i could say things have been getting better for me but they havent. i miss you more and more everyday. your missing so much that i wish you could have been here for..man its really real now. i cry still at least a few times a day. i hope that will stop soon but i doubt it. well i hope your doing okay up there sissy, watch over me please. i love you more than anything, cant wait to see you again some day.
Marissa.
I just wanted to say that i miss you so much, and i cannot sleep. My mind is filled with thoughts, and memories of you. This is the first time that I have really cried since your funeral. It hurts to realize you are gone. I love you so much. And i miss recieving your help up at the host stand when I’m playing crypto. :’)
I LOVE YOU.
rissy..its been one month today. i still think of this like a horrible dream, i juss wanna wake up and see you in your bed cross the room. why did this happen sis..i hate that you must have thought no one would understand. i would of understood! i always understood everything you told me i wish you would of come and talked to me about this. it still is hardly real for me unless i sit and think about it for a long time. im not the same person anymore. it feels so different without you, im so different without you. i miss you coming home at night and waking me up jus so i could make you food (which i always ended up doing) then we would end up talking for hours and laughing about everything. you told me stories bout everything and i did the same. now i will never have that back. i feel like your jus away or something and you will be back soon. i dont know if i will ever be able to grasp that this is real and that your really gone. gosh marissa its soo unbearable wihtout you. i jus wish things were different i could go on forever, as you can see im having a really hard day. please try to help me through it or something. hope your doing good up their..im sure you are. 🙂 i love you more than anything sissy. and i miss you more than words can explain :'(
Bobby, Amanda, Krysta, Bob, Flora and Scott,
We’re thinking of you especially today. Hard to believe it has been a month. Not sure how you measure time when the world changes out from under you as it did Dec 1.
Anyway, just want to let you know we love you and we care so much. Wish there was something more we could do, but just know that Marissa was indeed special and will always be to her friends and family.
Love,
Laura
I love you ! hope your havingg fun up there:) miss you babyy!!!
I’ve made myself sick as I’ve finally realized you are gone.
I miss you terribly,
love you.
Riss. Formal was last night and that dance was no where near as fun as i had with you always grinden on me. I miss you so much baby words cant even explain the pain i have. your on my mind every day of my life and i love you and miss you so much. you have affected my life so much i wish we can go back and help you. girl you should have been there last night! i hope your having as much fun up there as we use too! Love you marissa<3.
My stomach gets sick when i realize i can’t bring you back. i don’t want this pain anymore. i miss you more than words can explain..we had a really nice time with Greg today he has been so wonderful, doing so much for us. sissy gosh i never wanted to loose you. ugh i fucking miss you! i love you..idk what to do without you.
bbygirl, LIFE SUCKS WITHOUT YOU
It’s been a little while since I have posted, but just wanted to say I miss you Marissa and I think about you all the time. Keep smiling for us!
its like i can’t get you outta my head. EVERYTHING reminds me of you. your in my dreams, i cant escape being sad that your not here anymore.
i miss you so much bestie
Marissa i was thinking about you all day todayy. i wish you wouldnt of done this. im missing you so muchh and jus wanna call you so i can be able to tell you everythingg that has been going on. i lovve you so much girlie.
marissa, i wish you were here with us ): we love youu
riss..i wish i knew when it was gunna get “better” here without you like everyone says it will. i dont think it will ever really get better, ill jus have to become content with this new reality. ugh i dont want this to be real. i havent slept well the past week or so. i keep waking up with these weird dreamss. and they jus make me cry. i dont like them one bit. i hope you know how much i truely miss you and how much i want you back here..this fucking pain sucks. i jus wanna be able to hug you forever! im missing a piece of my heart..hope your doing great up there, i love you with all my heart.
🙁
Hey Marissa, I got a lot on my mind tonight and having a tough time falling asleep, just thinking about you, we all miss you a lot and wish you were still here with us. Can’t wait till we all get to be with you again someday. Keep watching over all of us!
Marissa i love you and miss you so much youve been on my mind lately so i wanted to stop by and say hi. I miss your beautiful smile.
Love you girl always and forever:)
BABBBYGIRL……fuccccck! I misss you soo much:[
Rememberrrr “DIET COKE” & “GALT” ?!
Ahhhh…its no where near the same without you..watch over me lover. LOVE YOUUU(:
Dang… i heka started crying just reading all this.. you have been on my mind a l0t lately.. i had a dream b0ut yu the 0ther day.. we were in class and you were sitting next to some people that i talk to and i went over to say hi to everyone. well i bent over and you saw my nails and you were all “aileen!! i love your nails. i need to get mine done. the next time you go give me a call k?” and i just looked at you and smiled and sed fersure. i woke up crying. i told my mom bout it the next day and she said “….she came to visit you aileen” my heart sank when she said that. i can’t believe your gone girl. i miss you so terribly much. you were such an inseperation to me. i remember for my 13th birthday party you came over. we had a little dance going on in my garage and i remember i had the hugest crush on one of the artherton brothers haha. and i went outside because i saw him dancing with someone else. you came out and talked to me. you were all like “giiiirl dont worry about him!! you are so beautiful and you can do so much better than that. now come on, lets go back inside and dance besides its YOUR party!” ohh man did you make me laugh so much. now that i look back i was so stupid for getting all butt hurt haha. your probably laughing also. dang that was so long ago. i wish i can rewind to that exact day when we were talking outside my house. i hope you know a lot of people miss you!! as you can tell from all of the blogs. wow, you know i was always so jealous of you. you always had a smile walking down the school hallways. you are sooo beautiful marissa. but now that i think about it. its not Godly to be jealous over someone. well…. i will talk to you some other day.
i miss you hun!
love you
Even though we werent that close, we still had good times when we were together.
its all i can do to fight back tears as i go through everyday. you never leave my mind. i love you with all my heart sissy!
): miss you more than anything in this world
heyy my baby girl. my gosh. fighting these tears is horrible. I never thought I would have to go through so much pain in such a short amount of time. I don’t know what to say. all I can say is that I miss you. and I love you. and life without you is just not the same. I miss our talks in leadership, and I miss your crazy self during our fashion shows. you already know how much you meant to all of us. nothing can replace the warm smile, the laughter, the memories…all I can do is remember the good times. and hope that one day I will hear your laugh again. I love you Marissa so so much. I miss you. love you!
Whenever I can’t sleep I just come to your website and read what everyone says and it brings me comfort each time. Just seeing how you greatly impacted and touched everyones life in a positive way. We miss you a lot, stay close to all of us. Good night Marissa!
well i know i just left a comment like two days ago…but i just got home from the basketball game and i was totally thinking about you. this girl started doing flips up and down the sidlines and i totally remembered how you ALWAYS used to do that. haha that was like the highlight of it all.
i guess thats it. love you girly. miss you with all my hear..every day. <3
hi lover…so we played RC on Friday. That little girl started doing flips again! I remember last year you two had a little battle out on the basketball court. you lost to her!! haha, you were so pissedd. I miss you soo much, 2 months tomorrow, I CANNOT BELIEVE IT! UGH! I just wish you’d come back NOW! I have so much to tell you….seriouslyyyy 😉 Ive missed ‘our’ talks, and i’ve missed MY BEST FRIEND! I’m writing my creative writing paper on you…yet in my paper you come back to life…ha, I wish I could make my dreams come true! PLEASE watch over everyone. Its finally becoming my reality that your not here, and I hate it….. 🙁 I will always love you. YOU KNEW THAT…..miss you always babygirl.<333
lol, I remember that tumbling battle like it was yesterday…her dad and I were in the stands and every time we saw her face after that little girl took her turn we would say “don’t do it, don’t do it Marissa” and then of course she would go again, lol…oh, how bad she wanted me to spot her on a tuck when we were leaving so that she could win!…wish I would have :_( That was a good time though, she sure could win over a crowd…Kaitlyn, I hope you are hanging in there honey, stop by some time when you are in Modesto
Hey girlie….it been so hard this week. i think i am finally realizing that you aren’t coming back. i have missed you so much. there are no words to describe how much you meant to me. you were my shoulder to cry on when things got tough with my dad. i knew you understood how tough it was to have divorced parents. i felt like you were the only one who ever understood what i was going through. everyday i keep wishing that it hadnt happened. cassie and i were just talking last night about how we wished we had a time machine so we could go back in time and stop you and tell you how much you meant to us. ive missed talking to you about all the college stuff and everything else. i miss seeing your smile and being around your up beat mood. i feel bad because on the day of your funeral i took a poem with me that i had wrote about you. i read it to your family and promised your mom and dad i would take them a copy. its been hard for me to keep that promise but i am going to try to finally do so some time soon. i couldnt even stand to stay in ap bio with out you there. it was just to hard going to that class and knowing you wouldnt be there. i will always miss you.
love,
Kaitlyn
really wishing you could have been here tonight…every night, but especially tonight…never stop thinking about you, ily
2 months today. are you kidding me, it cant be real. i want you back here with me..with all of us. today is a hellah shitty day. everything that could’ve went wrong did. i wish you could be here with me. to help me through everything marissa you were the one who kept me strong. i feel so weak without you here. i still cry every single day about you. everyone keeps telling me i have all the memories but they only help a lil..like i remember when we were about five and we went to yosemite in our matching outfits and you lost your shorts down the river..dad had to go get them 🙂 that was funny. we have so many memories i just dont want them to start to fade away. i wish you could have been here today and everyday that there is to come. i know you cant i gotta get that thru my head. its just not working. anyways i love you with all my heart sissy. hope your having a good day up there and your watching out for all of us.
You have been on my mind a lot. I drove home for my parents house today and I realized it had been two months today. Wow… I can’t believe that… I know you are watching out for all of us… thank you for that… I only hope that your parents, grandparents, other family and friends are trying to get through this, I know its been hard on everyone…Love you and miss you…
heyy babyygirll its hard to think that its already been two months without you. i feel like your just at harvard over summer again. or going through one of your phases and not going thru school. everytime i go to text all of the girls i want to send the txt to you too. i miss you so much and wish we could just bring you backk. i hope your having funn up there girlie. i miss you soo muchh. visitt me soon pleasee i have a lot to fill you in on. love you babyygirll.
hey marissa. last night i just tossed an turned knowing what today was. its been two long months already and now reality is starting to set in, your gone 🙁 everytime i closed my eyes last night your face would just be there i miss seeing your face i want to see it in person again and stop seeing it in my dreams. I had a dream that i was dreaming these past couple months and i woke up and this never happennend i wish it could be like that girl. its so hard to fight these tears now that its becoming real to me. please watch over kamie and kaitlyn they really need you. and i want you too know im taking care of them as much as i can. i love you and always will. please watch over us all. love you riss:)
Hey Marissa. I’ve finally come on here to write something. Just seeing everything that people have written to you makes it so much more real all over again. I’ve been trying to just not think about you and Dillon, but i do everyday. And to me things just still arent real. It’s like all of this is a bad dream. I have dreams about you all the time and i miss you so much. AP english with you isnt the same. I have no one to cheat off of, and no one to help my lazy ass, because you somehow always managed to get all the work done and i still have no idea how you did it. And i never really said thank you to you, for always being there or always making me laugh, or for always being the only girl friend that i had who would talk to me about politics and books. Your intellect and witty remarks are always missed in 1st period, you were always the one to throw something thought provoking out there, and i really miss that. Me and Kaitlyn both miss you sooooo much. I even miss your crazy driving, really. I have my lisence now (finally!) and on my way home sometimes i just drive by your house and remember all of the good times we had in your room, like me doing your makeup, watching your cheer videos for your london trip and making fun of the lady, watching kaitlyn wrestle briana, me telling you about all of my boy problems, when you me and kaitlyn would come to your house and knock on your window…lemons and cigarettes for breakfast! ill never forget you Marissa, you will always me in my heart. Rest in Paradise girl, love you
Marissa, you were like a sister to me. i love you so much. and its 02-03-10 and you still have me crying. i know that you would want me to be happy but honestly i cnt be when i kno your gone. its hard going to school seeing where me and you would run into eachother or hang out. i remeber the first day i meet you like it was yesturday. i needed help around school haha. you always seemed to be there for me and little did i kno form the time we met to 2 years later you would be gone! i cnt belive your gone. but honey i know you will save me a spot in heaven. watch over me ok and look out for me. i love you. REST IN PEACE. ~Kayla
heyy there marissa(: i was just sitting and listening to my iPod and a song came on the reminded me of our leadership fashion shows. the one to be specific that you stripped off your zebra jacket and your scarf and all that. haha that was so hilarious(: i miss you girly. i remember when we were sitting in leadership and you asked me if i could take your spot that night to go to the board meeting. and i was like yeah ill go! haha then that night i texted you cause my sister was sick and i couldnt go. you were like “well you better get someone else to do it or else we’ll have to go to like five of them!” and you were so mad. and then you called me like a half hour later realizing who you were actually talking to and that it was me! that was hilarious, and you felt so bad. haha miss you girly, cant wait to see you some day! <3
Marissa, honey where do i start. who can i go on? and who can save me? i cnt save myself because your the only person who can. i feel empty inside and i need you here with me. it sucks going to school and seeing where i first meet you or were we would hang out. i never knew the things that made me laugh then make me cry now. i made you a memorial page on myspace. heres the link http://home.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user
you were a classmate, friend, bestfriend, and big sister now your a memory that will NEVER be forgotten. its hard writeing this without crying. i cnt wait to see you again. and maybe you will show me around heaven also(: just remeber save me a sopt right next to you. and look over me please. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH! rip Marissa
~Kayla<3
hey Marissa, well i was listening to your song again this morning and man i really miss you please help me have a good day today. i dnt think i can go on anymmore at school): i love you honey. rest in peace.
-Kayla Buriani
Senior nights tonight. I remembe during football season, we stood in line together…you, your dad, myself, and mi madree. you were blabbing on and on about something that totally made no sense to me, oh and how much we didn’t want to have to walk down the football field infront of everyone! wish you were here, watch over everyone 🙂
marissa,
i was thinking bout you as i struggled through an ap bio test the other day.lol and calculus as well..ick.lol i thought of a story to tell you about…well you know…no need to say it. and got all excited juss to realize you werent there. i really miss you. my loves with you and someday i hope to see you again. watch over us until then kay?
Hey Marissa, there’s a lot of good things going on in the honor and memory of your name! I know you are up above smiling and proud of all the things that are going on. We wish you were here with us, I hold onto the fact that I know your watching over us. Stay close!
marissa. 2 months already. its so scary to think that you have already been gone that long. A lot of people miss you so much and always will. I often miss seeing you around school. I read the article in the modesto bee the other day about the “Marissa’s Closet”that your mom and aunt? i believe, are starting. It’s a really great cause and will help a lot of girls. Watch over everone kay marissa. miss ya always (:
Love always Jesika (half of your least favorite couple)
heyy babyygirll. haha so todayy the story got brought up about that one time when you were spending the night and it was just us and my mom lol. and my mom freaked out think someone was in my backyard but really it was just a bucket rolling around lol. madee me laughh lol. love you girlie and i miss you every singlee dayy.
oh my oh my how much youve missed! i miss our talks! i miss everything we did together! you will always be my virgin buddy & wildthanng! 😉 i love you babygirrrl. always(:
Marissa, oh how everyone misses you! You were truely one of the nicest girls i knew and one of the best cheerleaders on the squad 🙂 I will never forget when it was the game against Caleveras and we were late! So we had to run.. o boy did that suck. But I will never forget the encouraging words and how much you helped me that night. You will never be forgotten and we miss you! Watch over us here at Ripon High <3
missss youuu
miss you sis. wish you were here more than anything.
life isnt the same, i need you so bad right now..please watch over me especially right now. please keep me strong sis. i love you alot. rest in peace baby sister 😀 i know you hated it when i called you that since we are only a month apart lol but that always made you laugh. 🙂
So as you know it took my lazy ass quite a while to actually have the balls to come to this n read over what people have said about u. I’m on my way to arizona right now n u popped in my mind cuz im eating a fruit rollup. Oh n btw it was damn good cuz I no u were wondering haha. I know ur probly hella makin fun of me when u see me cry over u when I’m alone all the time. Haha I’m a weak lil shit I no. I miss whenever u told me ur stories n how u would do this flutter with ur eyes when it got to a really dramatic ending. I remember how u would always wear that bright ass red lipstick. I remember how I would scream for u during your cheers n tell u how hot u were n u would busy up laughing in the middle of ur cheer, n I didn’t even care that everyone was staring at me. I member on the one homegame how u were sick and ask me to go like on this mission to find all ur stuff haha n then u wrote me a praise for it. I still have that btw. I’m mad that ur not here for me but only out of selfishness, because I’m truely happy that ur happy. Just get sad everyonce in a while when I think about the things that “shoulda been” n realize they won’t b. God bless Marissa n tell all my family up there hi (just look for hella funny mexicans n a few crazy white people). Tell Dillon I will always give him my change n thanks for helping me out the one day. He will no what I’m talking about… Well I’m about to get on my plane… So i will write again someday. Love u
ur morgasm
Marissa-track started earlier this week. no matter who is talking to me or how many times someone tries to get my attention my mind is wandering sonewhere else; mainly thinking about how the team would be dofferent if you were still a part of it. ive struggled the past couple of months to remember all the times we shared the past two seasons but to be honest i took all those moments for granted because i never thought they would be gone quite like this. the main thing i remember is us always watching baseball boys practice while we did our vaulting workouts. a few of us have kept that tradition going =) this is going to be a long and hard season for all of us knowing you wont be there to share the moments with us. i still hope at each practice you will walk on to the track and start warming up with us like none of this ever happened. there will always be room on the team for you. please watch our clumsy butts this season and hope for the best for us cause i know that some of us still think of you every practice and still wish you the best in your new endeavours 🙂 with love forever
Hi it’s me I just needed to say how your memories are remembered. I know your an angel watching over thoughs who need your guidness and your wisdom to help make there journey through life a lil easier. You were an angel here on this side with out even knowing your ablities. I know your journey on ther other side is already a full one. Cheyenne saw your spirit the other day he was getting on bart and your spirit sat infront of him. He wanted to take a picture and share it but he didn’t think that would be kewl. I believe your spirit was there for a second. He really needed that the next day who knows you let him know that you were watching knowing the fate of his friend. It happened the next nite. He was shot in the back 4 times as an attemped robbery. He was a hero with out knowing it as well. He saved his girfriends life by making her get down. He didn’t make it he was taken off life support yesterday from what I understand. But you know this already. Cheyenne really is having a hard time dealing with this. Give him a touch of your kindness. He talks of your spirit often. I am writing this hoping to share how we miss you. I believe your spirit was put here and then taken back for a lot of reasons. You shared alot with others and your kindness will live on. I talk to your Gram and she sounds so courageous. She is the glue that is helping everyone through this storm. You know this already. I hope I made sense writing this. I wanted you to know how your missed and how you showed your spirit to Cheyenne the other day. I believe this. I want him to hold on to this to know he can hold on to memories and remember it will be ok not the same but ok. Thank you agian. Dee